one foot in front of the other...
No, I don't know what I'm doing in life.
Yes, it really depresses and scares me at times.
Sometimes it scares me so much so I freeze up and can't think of anything but my inadequacies and failures, slowly, or quickly, spiralling into a hole so deep and dark it seems like there's no hope.
Sometimes I open my eyes in the morning and my first, if not one of my first, thoughts is "What's the point?"
Despite all this, I'm too stubborn to give up. Or too selfish.
Either way, I'm not quite ready to give up, so I continue trying, best I can. Perhaps not the most enthusiastic try at times, but I still try. I wake up, pull myself out of bed, brush my teeth .... get on with that seemingly pointless daily grind.
Because despite the evidence, I refuse to believe it's all pointless. There is something out there, somewhere along the line. There has to be, right?
Just take it all one step at a time...
And the person who's writing this now?
I hope she's a mere ghost of the past in ten years time, replaced by someone stronger and better than these depressive thoughts.
Yes, it really depresses and scares me at times.
Sometimes it scares me so much so I freeze up and can't think of anything but my inadequacies and failures, slowly, or quickly, spiralling into a hole so deep and dark it seems like there's no hope.
Sometimes I open my eyes in the morning and my first, if not one of my first, thoughts is "What's the point?"
Despite all this, I'm too stubborn to give up. Or too selfish.
Either way, I'm not quite ready to give up, so I continue trying, best I can. Perhaps not the most enthusiastic try at times, but I still try. I wake up, pull myself out of bed, brush my teeth .... get on with that seemingly pointless daily grind.
Because despite the evidence, I refuse to believe it's all pointless. There is something out there, somewhere along the line. There has to be, right?
Just take it all one step at a time...
And the person who's writing this now?
I hope she's a mere ghost of the past in ten years time, replaced by someone stronger and better than these depressive thoughts.