selfish bitch.
Certain things aren't working out the way I want it to.
And yes, I do hear the spoilt selfishness in that statement, but I can't stop the boiling anger, annoyance, frustration and severe disappointment that comes up when things, particular things, don't work out how I want it to.
I know I can't have everything I want.
I know consideration needs to be taken for other people and situations, circumstances beyond anyone's control.
I know I have it pretty good - that I shouldn't complain because things could be so much worse. Don't be a little brat about things.
Something's changed lately though. That peace that held me together previously, the peace that made me content and mostly happy with compromises seems to have deserted me, letting the anger and selfishness reign.
I want to bitch and complain about how it's "too much to ask" just to have one simple little thing go right.
Maybe it is too much to ask. The world just doesn't have enough cosmic energy or whatever to let me have my way, exactly the way I want without all these compromises.
It feels like I've spent my entire life compromising.
When the fuck can I stop compromising? I'm starting to get sick of my own bullshit "it could be worse."
And yes, I do hear the spoilt selfishness in that statement, but I can't stop the boiling anger, annoyance, frustration and severe disappointment that comes up when things, particular things, don't work out how I want it to.
I know I can't have everything I want.
I know consideration needs to be taken for other people and situations, circumstances beyond anyone's control.
I know I have it pretty good - that I shouldn't complain because things could be so much worse. Don't be a little brat about things.
Something's changed lately though. That peace that held me together previously, the peace that made me content and mostly happy with compromises seems to have deserted me, letting the anger and selfishness reign.
I want to bitch and complain about how it's "too much to ask" just to have one simple little thing go right.
Maybe it is too much to ask. The world just doesn't have enough cosmic energy or whatever to let me have my way, exactly the way I want without all these compromises.
It feels like I've spent my entire life compromising.
When the fuck can I stop compromising? I'm starting to get sick of my own bullshit "it could be worse."