thoughts in unusual arrangements
You live your life like society tells you to;
You do what they want you to do;
What are you left with, when you are all alone;
Are you left with just you? Lonely and blue, just you?
You do it how they ask of you;
No questions, no answers, just do as they tell you to?
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I was thinking of leaving, packing it all up and taking it all away. A journey to scrape at the heart of my being.
Thoughts have rearranged, re-decided my time, my fate.
Just like that...well perhaps not just so, but close to it.
I've decided to stay.
My closest friend is in a state of disarray; life thrown into upheaval like she's never seen before...well, not in her adult life that is. Another - my sister - the same way. How can I leave them when life is so chaotic? These times are trying for them; myself as well. I prefer to stay and help them through it, work it out. Work on myself, here, where my life is. No, not just for them, but they are important to me and I've spent so many years running from my peers, my loved ones. Not this time, not right now. I'm doing it my way this time. It may not work and it may be the best thing that ever did happen to me...yeah, so we'll see. Focusing on the good instead of dwelling on the bad.
Lines...the lines are drawn, so clear this time around. I see the hopes, the dreams, the almost forgotten whims of the years gone by. Picking up the shreds of love's forgotten memories...you know the ones. The ones that I almost let slip by, on a thin, worn time-line of day in and day out. Before you know it, it's all gone. Just like mother told me "if you run from it now you will never look back". Or something like that. She did remind me that the most important people in your life today may not always remain the same and if you don't give them the care that they need and deserve, they may not be there when you return. When you return from your self-centered journey into the heart of your own matter, and come back searching for WHAT ONCE WAS...they may very well have moved on too, searching for their own meaning of self and life. Isn't that what IT IS all about? I think so. We are ALL here searching, scraping for the meaning of our own lives. That life is changing and reevaluating on a daily basis, and those not directly WITHIN that circle of contemplation get left out...they remain peripheral forever. I have those, we all have those. I refuse to be that peripheral to those that I love, and forever is just too strong of a word; just like hate and love are of equal importance in my vocabulary. Forever is just too permanent.
You do what they want you to do;
What are you left with, when you are all alone;
Are you left with just you? Lonely and blue, just you?
You do it how they ask of you;
No questions, no answers, just do as they tell you to?
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
I was thinking of leaving, packing it all up and taking it all away. A journey to scrape at the heart of my being.
Thoughts have rearranged, re-decided my time, my fate.
Just like that...well perhaps not just so, but close to it.
I've decided to stay.
My closest friend is in a state of disarray; life thrown into upheaval like she's never seen before...well, not in her adult life that is. Another - my sister - the same way. How can I leave them when life is so chaotic? These times are trying for them; myself as well. I prefer to stay and help them through it, work it out. Work on myself, here, where my life is. No, not just for them, but they are important to me and I've spent so many years running from my peers, my loved ones. Not this time, not right now. I'm doing it my way this time. It may not work and it may be the best thing that ever did happen to me...yeah, so we'll see. Focusing on the good instead of dwelling on the bad.
Lines...the lines are drawn, so clear this time around. I see the hopes, the dreams, the almost forgotten whims of the years gone by. Picking up the shreds of love's forgotten memories...you know the ones. The ones that I almost let slip by, on a thin, worn time-line of day in and day out. Before you know it, it's all gone. Just like mother told me "if you run from it now you will never look back". Or something like that. She did remind me that the most important people in your life today may not always remain the same and if you don't give them the care that they need and deserve, they may not be there when you return. When you return from your self-centered journey into the heart of your own matter, and come back searching for WHAT ONCE WAS...they may very well have moved on too, searching for their own meaning of self and life. Isn't that what IT IS all about? I think so. We are ALL here searching, scraping for the meaning of our own lives. That life is changing and reevaluating on a daily basis, and those not directly WITHIN that circle of contemplation get left out...they remain peripheral forever. I have those, we all have those. I refuse to be that peripheral to those that I love, and forever is just too strong of a word; just like hate and love are of equal importance in my vocabulary. Forever is just too permanent.