Locked up!
The area i am acting in, my real live, my net live and all the friends i got in both lives is something i value very much. I don't come to make differences between net friends and real live friends. Though when i do an appointment with one of my net friends, i keep them as if it was a real live meeting. I wouldn't want to be left behind, waiting all day behind the screen as much as i wouldn´t want to be left alone in real live by my dates either.
Why do i write this? ...well... Yesterday i had a long talk to one of my net friends and i realized how locked up i am. How tied and restricted...
I want to help and hug and meet and cheer and i see how small the acting area is that i am living in. I feel a bit helpless right now but then again. What i do comes from the buttom of my heart and i know i still can do something... just not as much as i wished to do...
Sometimes live is cruel and i though of how much i was complaining but looking back, i always find someone who is running more trouble than i do and i end up being glad with JUST THE THINGS I HAVE AS TROUBLE. In the end the bitter pill of it is that i am too far away to do something that REALLY helps... Is it enough to just look and listen?
I think it's not and it´s bitter as i love all my friends in net and seeing any of them suffer, makes me feel so small...
...i want to be strong and i know i will be giving everything that comes from my small and honest heart and i will hope that it will be at least a little help...
...this kinda makes me want to grow wings and fly to visit all my net friends in real, hug them and let them know how precious they are to me... I wonder if any of them can imagin how much they mean to me... but in the end they have to feel my love that i send out to them...
Why do i write this? ...well... Yesterday i had a long talk to one of my net friends and i realized how locked up i am. How tied and restricted...
I want to help and hug and meet and cheer and i see how small the acting area is that i am living in. I feel a bit helpless right now but then again. What i do comes from the buttom of my heart and i know i still can do something... just not as much as i wished to do...
Sometimes live is cruel and i though of how much i was complaining but looking back, i always find someone who is running more trouble than i do and i end up being glad with JUST THE THINGS I HAVE AS TROUBLE. In the end the bitter pill of it is that i am too far away to do something that REALLY helps... Is it enough to just look and listen?
I think it's not and it´s bitter as i love all my friends in net and seeing any of them suffer, makes me feel so small...
...i want to be strong and i know i will be giving everything that comes from my small and honest heart and i will hope that it will be at least a little help...
...this kinda makes me want to grow wings and fly to visit all my net friends in real, hug them and let them know how precious they are to me... I wonder if any of them can imagin how much they mean to me... but in the end they have to feel my love that i send out to them...