| new beginnings (once again?) |
This has been a time of rebirth for me lately...
This past week, I've been in the process of moving. My new household and I are relocating to a little house that's not too far from where they were living last year. We had to move because there are now 5 of us, and we were crammed into a little 2 bedroom place. We're now in a 3 bedroom place that seems like it could have a good amount of room for us. It's a pretty nice place actually, and the main draw is the instant community that is here for us to join into. There is a family of IV staffers, that is across the street, and they're good friends with josh and alf. The friendships between them equates to instant friendship for everyone in the house. There's also people from my new Bible study that are close by. Niel lives right up the street, and Steve and Alyssa live down the street. Heather lives right across the street. It's a good place to be.
I've also been going to a new church, gateway fellowship. The teaching is pretty good, I like the pastor. The big seller of this place is that is has a great post college/college student ministry group going. We all meet up once a month to hangout and praise together. I've been quick to give into my feelings of tiredness, and just walking away from the opportunities to get together with people, but I've recently began to think of things more as network opportunities than as a way that I can be burnt out from the week.
The opportunities to see how people are growing without me in davis has really been encouraging. I had a hard time with the idea of even leaving the fellowship at the end of last year. God promised me that I didn't have to be around for Him to have the fellowship grow crazily (I do know that He doesn't need me singlehandedly anywhere). It has been great to hear about how things are going so great for people. I did extend some challenges to people before I left, and it seems that God has really been pushing them to open themselves and their influences around them to lots of people.
It seems that also, there has been new beginnings for relationships that I thought were dead. A couple of years ago, I had a falling out with a friend of mine. I thought that she was taking my friendship with her for granted. I felt like I was putting in a great amount of work with her, just to be met with negativity and non-effort on her part. My answer to that was to just cut her out of my life. I didn't want to be a burden to anyone who didn't want me around them. It was kinda catching up with me as of late, and tonight I decided to just catch her on facebook chat. Part of me didn't want to bother her, but I felt like I should use this chance to be able to apologize for how I wrote her off, even though I felt like I was on the losing end of the friendship in the first place. I realized that I wasn't responding in the best way to her, and to the way that I felt I was being treated. The best idea was to be able to let someone know how their actions were making me feel. I just ran away from things and allowed myself to become calloused to her. After a few years, I can say that God has put it on both of our hearts to reconcile with each other. We had a great convo, which included sorries on both sides. We're now willing to move forward and try to repair the friendship that we once had.
God is putting me in a season of brand new. I'm being given the opportunity to start new in a lot of different ways. I want to be able to answer the call to serve Him, while I'm in uncomfortable situations. I'm glad that I've been able to see how He's responded to my efforts so far, but I know that I have a lot further to go. This includes making a bigger attempt to be part of the community that is coming together around me. It's exciting, but it will be tiring too. I'm looking forward to it.
This past week, I've been in the process of moving. My new household and I are relocating to a little house that's not too far from where they were living last year. We had to move because there are now 5 of us, and we were crammed into a little 2 bedroom place. We're now in a 3 bedroom place that seems like it could have a good amount of room for us. It's a pretty nice place actually, and the main draw is the instant community that is here for us to join into. There is a family of IV staffers, that is across the street, and they're good friends with josh and alf. The friendships between them equates to instant friendship for everyone in the house. There's also people from my new Bible study that are close by. Niel lives right up the street, and Steve and Alyssa live down the street. Heather lives right across the street. It's a good place to be.
I've also been going to a new church, gateway fellowship. The teaching is pretty good, I like the pastor. The big seller of this place is that is has a great post college/college student ministry group going. We all meet up once a month to hangout and praise together. I've been quick to give into my feelings of tiredness, and just walking away from the opportunities to get together with people, but I've recently began to think of things more as network opportunities than as a way that I can be burnt out from the week.
The opportunities to see how people are growing without me in davis has really been encouraging. I had a hard time with the idea of even leaving the fellowship at the end of last year. God promised me that I didn't have to be around for Him to have the fellowship grow crazily (I do know that He doesn't need me singlehandedly anywhere). It has been great to hear about how things are going so great for people. I did extend some challenges to people before I left, and it seems that God has really been pushing them to open themselves and their influences around them to lots of people.
It seems that also, there has been new beginnings for relationships that I thought were dead. A couple of years ago, I had a falling out with a friend of mine. I thought that she was taking my friendship with her for granted. I felt like I was putting in a great amount of work with her, just to be met with negativity and non-effort on her part. My answer to that was to just cut her out of my life. I didn't want to be a burden to anyone who didn't want me around them. It was kinda catching up with me as of late, and tonight I decided to just catch her on facebook chat. Part of me didn't want to bother her, but I felt like I should use this chance to be able to apologize for how I wrote her off, even though I felt like I was on the losing end of the friendship in the first place. I realized that I wasn't responding in the best way to her, and to the way that I felt I was being treated. The best idea was to be able to let someone know how their actions were making me feel. I just ran away from things and allowed myself to become calloused to her. After a few years, I can say that God has put it on both of our hearts to reconcile with each other. We had a great convo, which included sorries on both sides. We're now willing to move forward and try to repair the friendship that we once had.
God is putting me in a season of brand new. I'm being given the opportunity to start new in a lot of different ways. I want to be able to answer the call to serve Him, while I'm in uncomfortable situations. I'm glad that I've been able to see how He's responded to my efforts so far, but I know that I have a lot further to go. This includes making a bigger attempt to be part of the community that is coming together around me. It's exciting, but it will be tiring too. I'm looking forward to it.