Disrespect

[mahmi]

i am so SICK of nobody in this house having any respect for me! when i was a kid and i did so much as use the wrong tone i'd get beat the crap out of. i spent most elementery school black and blue. Haaris and Nabihah are SO rude to me, they curse at me, they yell in my face, they are absolutely disrespectful and nobody does shit. they dotn even get YELLED AT! when i inssit that my parents do somethign the most they do is call from the other room and say "you shouldnt do that" half the time they dont even know what it is they are telling them not to do. it makes me absolutely FURIOUS i can not STAND to be treated that way. no one put up with that shit when i was a kid! i would not even IMAGINE actign that way in front of anyone older. they wouldnt dare treat any one but me that way. nobody pays any attention to me and nobody cares how anyone is treating me so they can do wahtever they want. i hate hate hate hate it. whenever i say soemthing my brother and sister throw soemthing in my face like "well you failed highschool" or "your twenty and you still live in your parents house!" as if i want to, as if i dont feel like a big enough failure everyday on my own. as if my mother would ever go an HOUR without reminding me, jsut in case i forget!

and as if they werent enough my friends have jumped on the train as well. it seems like none of them respect my needs while i bend over backwards to fulfill theirs. and the second i bring it up i become the most selfish self absorbed human being ever. i do my best to make everyone happy but its obviously never enough. i feel like i should give up trying. being nice isnt getting me anywhere.