Pray for Heaven for Asad
the atmosphere is so muggy and so heavy, my head feels like its made of lead. i just cant believe today. Asad has minutes left to live. they're taking out the life support tonight. he cant live. its just not possible. no one ive known directly has ever died. i didn't even no him that well. but i cant believe it. i cant imagine how its going to be. Mela and parties, the masjid, MYO-basketball. No asad. my brain keeps trying to like edit him out of the picture, but its just not believable. i get him to dissapear but before the last specs are gone he pops back in. when nadia left class crying i obviously knew somethign was wrong. but when mrs revell said "motorcycle" adn "freedom high" i was so confused. and ironically enough we were reading abotu death. and 10 or 15 minutes later i realised. but i didtn accept it. i kept telling myself i was wrong, untill sundus confirmed it. i didnt even know about the accident. i havent seen him in months. i almost had a crush on him last year. he was such a nice guy. he only turned 18 this monday. and he never once got to try out the brand new BMW his parents got him for his bday. it was unregistered and un-insured and so he had to take his motorcycle that night. if only hed taken the car, he may have lived. but i guess everyone goes on their own time. i just cant imagine him out of the picture.