OMG I'm not dead!
Yeah I've been busy for a long time. I've got some much to rant about it's not even funny! Ann chan told me to rant here, so here we go. I have a few things I could rant about, but I'll do a quick update. Still in grad school still living with my roommate (and her bf that doesn't pay jack shit, but more on that later). I continue to be socially inept, and constantly left out of things that only couples can go to. My research is going slowly, but I always feel like I could do better. I'm nervous that my advisor thinks I fail at talking and/or life because I get yelled at for things I should have learned by now. I'm probably being paranoid (it's what I do best), but meh it happens. Moooving on.
Okay, the biggest rant probably stems from my roommate. Against my better judgement yet again, I decided to live with one of my lab mates. She had just broken up with her boyfriend, so I figured I'd be safe for awhile and it would be fun. Low and behold, she's clone of my sister in one little annoying aspect, she can't be fucking alone. Literally, two days after they break up, she's got another one, Eric. Poor Eric, he never had a chance. God bless Eric, but he's more socially inept than me (I know!), and my roomie is well used to sex all the time. He wanted long-term, take it slow, she wanted mr rebound. That lasted for two weeks or so. Then, barely a day after they decided to stop seeing each other, came James. He's 2.5 years younger, a homophobe, and a redneck with literally a lewd comment after every sentence.
Basically, she moved him into our house without even asking me. AWESOME! It gets better, he doesn't pay, never leaves, and they shower together. They cook, use my plates, and don't clean up after themselves half the time. Did I mention he doesn't pay anything? Oh sorry I feel it bears repeating. Needless to say, I receded into the anime bubble that I did in high school. I game and watch/read anime to pass the time. I call Ann chan for social interaction because unfortunately sometimes I get lonely.
Alright, the friend situation. I have thoroughly discovered that I just don't make friends well. So many seem so natural with people, I second guess myself and always feel left out. I then talk too much and annoy people. So I get depressed and go into myself more. Kickass. See I thought I had a good friend in this girl Janna in the lab. I now think we're acquaintances really. It's obvious I annoy her quite a bit sometimes, guess shit happens right.
I'm miss mother-fucking sunshine today aren't I? Truth be told, I'm getting to do research that makes me happy, but I guess I'm a horrid introvert. Well, I finally got anxiety pills for the public speaking yay. Hmm, maybe I'm ranting because it's the first day of my period. Could definitely be. Oh well, I'll start ranting here, I think it'll make me feel better. w00t!
Okay, the biggest rant probably stems from my roommate. Against my better judgement yet again, I decided to live with one of my lab mates. She had just broken up with her boyfriend, so I figured I'd be safe for awhile and it would be fun. Low and behold, she's clone of my sister in one little annoying aspect, she can't be fucking alone. Literally, two days after they break up, she's got another one, Eric. Poor Eric, he never had a chance. God bless Eric, but he's more socially inept than me (I know!), and my roomie is well used to sex all the time. He wanted long-term, take it slow, she wanted mr rebound. That lasted for two weeks or so. Then, barely a day after they decided to stop seeing each other, came James. He's 2.5 years younger, a homophobe, and a redneck with literally a lewd comment after every sentence.
Basically, she moved him into our house without even asking me. AWESOME! It gets better, he doesn't pay, never leaves, and they shower together. They cook, use my plates, and don't clean up after themselves half the time. Did I mention he doesn't pay anything? Oh sorry I feel it bears repeating. Needless to say, I receded into the anime bubble that I did in high school. I game and watch/read anime to pass the time. I call Ann chan for social interaction because unfortunately sometimes I get lonely.
Alright, the friend situation. I have thoroughly discovered that I just don't make friends well. So many seem so natural with people, I second guess myself and always feel left out. I then talk too much and annoy people. So I get depressed and go into myself more. Kickass. See I thought I had a good friend in this girl Janna in the lab. I now think we're acquaintances really. It's obvious I annoy her quite a bit sometimes, guess shit happens right.
I'm miss mother-fucking sunshine today aren't I? Truth be told, I'm getting to do research that makes me happy, but I guess I'm a horrid introvert. Well, I finally got anxiety pills for the public speaking yay. Hmm, maybe I'm ranting because it's the first day of my period. Could definitely be. Oh well, I'll start ranting here, I think it'll make me feel better. w00t!