Post-exam Thought Process
So I just got back from my statistical mechanics test. I have a lot of emotions at the ready, and I feel I could sort of dwell on any of them and have that particular emotion win out, if that makes any sense. I recognized all the stuff on it, wrote a bunch of stuff down, but I was totally frazzled and unsure, and I don't think I got any of the questions completely right.
This has definitely been my *least* favorite physics class. In most physics texts, I can read the book, and even if I don't follow every step of every argument, I can tell what the important conclusions are. I can tell what I'll need to be able to duplicate and what is just derivation that I won't really need to ever do myself. Not so with this book. I have a really hard time telling the difference between derivation of fundamental conclusions and applications of those conclusions. I just reaaaaaaally hope I can get out of this class and never have to worry about it again.
So my thoughts are all over the place. "I bet everyone else did really well." "I bet it was easy and I should have studied more (its true. I really should have studied more)" There's a strong feeling of frustration at myself for not studying more or studying better. There's a lot of fear about being able to learn everything I need to for the final. On the other hand, I'm thinking "Hopefully I'll get a lot of partial credit and do ok. Plus I can work hard over the next week to get ready for the final. I'll be ok." That side of me wants to feel somewhat happy and see how things go.
I think I'm choosing to acknowledge that the second set of thoughts are more rational and deserve more attention. Its true. There's an ok chance that I'll get a fair amount of partial credit. And even at the worst, I can definitely do well on the final. Even if I did horribly and just lost all chance at passing the class (which I didn't), to kick myself would be silly and pointless. Afterall, God is still with me, and He still loves me. So do a whole lot of other people. So in a fair estimation of things, life will go on and I will be ok. But the main thing is I need to stop thinking about it for now and have peace for awhile.
God please help me to know that things will be ok, because you are always taking care of me!!
Now I have choices. I know I need to relax and veg out till Johannah comes over, but how? Take a nap? Possibly. Play video games? Possibly. Finish this post and then type up some thoughts about theology? That sounds like a strong possibility. Sometimes giving myself something *else* to think hard about is as good a way to relax and escape for a bit. But I don't feel like being productive just yet. Maybe a little bit later.
In any case, that's where I'm at right now. If you read this, and you are a praying person, pray that I pass Statistical Mechanics and never have to take it again! Thanks.
David
This has definitely been my *least* favorite physics class. In most physics texts, I can read the book, and even if I don't follow every step of every argument, I can tell what the important conclusions are. I can tell what I'll need to be able to duplicate and what is just derivation that I won't really need to ever do myself. Not so with this book. I have a really hard time telling the difference between derivation of fundamental conclusions and applications of those conclusions. I just reaaaaaaally hope I can get out of this class and never have to worry about it again.
So my thoughts are all over the place. "I bet everyone else did really well." "I bet it was easy and I should have studied more (its true. I really should have studied more)" There's a strong feeling of frustration at myself for not studying more or studying better. There's a lot of fear about being able to learn everything I need to for the final. On the other hand, I'm thinking "Hopefully I'll get a lot of partial credit and do ok. Plus I can work hard over the next week to get ready for the final. I'll be ok." That side of me wants to feel somewhat happy and see how things go.
I think I'm choosing to acknowledge that the second set of thoughts are more rational and deserve more attention. Its true. There's an ok chance that I'll get a fair amount of partial credit. And even at the worst, I can definitely do well on the final. Even if I did horribly and just lost all chance at passing the class (which I didn't), to kick myself would be silly and pointless. Afterall, God is still with me, and He still loves me. So do a whole lot of other people. So in a fair estimation of things, life will go on and I will be ok. But the main thing is I need to stop thinking about it for now and have peace for awhile.
God please help me to know that things will be ok, because you are always taking care of me!!
Now I have choices. I know I need to relax and veg out till Johannah comes over, but how? Take a nap? Possibly. Play video games? Possibly. Finish this post and then type up some thoughts about theology? That sounds like a strong possibility. Sometimes giving myself something *else* to think hard about is as good a way to relax and escape for a bit. But I don't feel like being productive just yet. Maybe a little bit later.
In any case, that's where I'm at right now. If you read this, and you are a praying person, pray that I pass Statistical Mechanics and never have to take it again! Thanks.
David