confusion
why is it my life is so confusing? it was starting to work out and be simple and understandable. then a wench gets thrown in. well i guess people are wondering what i am talking about. well my life has been great these past two months. i was spending lots of time with Todd. fall even more in love with him and realizing how perfect he is for me. not a doubt in my mind. then on sunday after my brother and his roommate Billy left. they come over every sunday for diner. when my sister anouces that she thinks the BIlly likes me. at first i was doubtful. but my sister pointed out that billy has been dressing better and better each week. and i guess this last sunday he was drenched in his calongue. Unfortunely my noise was clogged and i couldnt smell a thing. with this information my brain started to think. but of couse with Billy spending the week in Az with his mom and sis. all i have is the time where i wasnt really noticing him too much. then later on in the week my sister started talking about this subject again. meantioning how he always sits across form me at the table. mainly talkes to me, points out his clothes. has offered to make me dinner, and he and my brother always make sure im at their comedy performances and invite me to their party. but i really dont trust my sister she has been wrong before. but now after a week of sitting around thinking about it and talking about it with some friends. i have decided that if he were to ask me out i would go. but now i kind of want him to ask me out, to see what it would be like. i have a feeling i would really have a great time. he is really nice, charming, funny, and sweet. even though he is not my type of person i have become attracted to him. and not just his looks which are great. but his personality. i know it would only be a sort dating peroid or just a date. becasue of Idaho and then my mission. but i still want to try it. but then there is always the brother factor. we must not forget that he is my brothers roommate. that would be a little awkward. i think to date my brothers roommate. I'l im just so confused. im not even totally positive what i want or that he wants me. Ahh why couldnt i have just stayed ignorant of all this stuff.