Apr 21, 2005 16:29
This is what I hate about vacation. Time just goes by, a day in the blink of an eye. Why, it's already nearing the end right now. Seriously, IT'S F-ING THURSDAY! That's the second half of the break beginning, nevermind that there's only about 7 hours left in the day. It goes so fast, and then school and a regular biological clock hits you like a baseball bat in Robert DeNiro's hand hits...you. I don't want it to be over, I have so much more I want and have to do. I need to work on my Civics projects, do more planning for Battle of the Bands, practice with my own band to make sure we've got our shit together, write at least one good song, clean out my closet/drawers, etc. I hate not having enough time to do what I have to. Maybe it's my own fault, since I can't budget my time well. After this, I have play rehearsals, among many other things. It may be the pinnacle of one's patheticness when they realize how really pathetic they are. Really, really pathetic. And on top of that, I haven't been able to get any time to go out and get newspaper advertisments (sorry Gaby, but it's the truth, I really just haven't had the time between my stuff and my mom's work schedule).
You know what would be dope as hell? If you could stop and/or turn back time. It'd be super easy to just turn back the clock at a moment's notice and do what you have to with more time to do it, not taking time out of what you already have to do. I wonder if I'd budget my time well even then. Probably not.
I think this is a well-deserved break, no doubt, and I'm resting as I should be. But it's just been going too fast. I think that even the summer's going to be like this, with time whizzing by and two months being over faster than you can say "we're free from the tyranny of AHS!". All the amazing seniors I know from Avon and other schools in the area will be gone and going off to college, while I'll be stuck in this hellhole like a rat in a cage. I'll be doing other stuff this summer too, as I'm sure everyone will be, and even that will be over soon enough, but not before you feel like you're still working.
It's wierd how time seems to work with your conscience against you; when you want something to be over with quickly, it seems to take 20 days, but when you want something to go on for a longer time, it seems to be over in a matter of minutes.
I guess there is little point to this entry, but I'm sure you all feel similarly. However you feel, leave a comment in the comment page with your thoughts on this.