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[magyarfujoshi]

...I feel as though a part of me is missing. Garland? ...Beast Boy? Are you all right?

I, ah, will be in the gardens. If anyone hears from him, please let me know. Thank you.

I feel very alone, lately.

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[mashespotatoes]

Have you heard from Russia? His room was next to mine, but I don't he's there anymore.

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[magyarfujoshi]

...No. I... I-I can't say that I'll miss him, but when multiple people leave like this, it worries me.

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[mashespotatoes]

Exactly.

At least multiple people leaving is better than multiple people arriving.

voice;

[magyarfujoshi]

I suppose so. But I still wonder what happens to us when we leave. Some return with memories and some without, and some don't return at all. What is this place in the larger scheme of things? The power this place holds over our very existence... it's overwhelming at times.

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[mashespotatoes]

When I left before, I didn't remember being here while I was at home. It wasn't until I got back that I realized I'd been here at all. It was like nothing had changed while I was gone.

That's what I worry about the most, of course, things falling apart without us while we're here. But if that's not really an issue, then it's more a question of sitting and waiting. The idea that it can do that to us is pretty overwhelming, though.

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[magyarfujoshi]

And that contributes to the feeling of futility. Is the blink of an eye here a thousand years at home? And could we possibly regress--leave here and come back from an earlier time period, but still remember this place? Lithuania came back younger, but had no memories of this place. Could those facts be related? It's just... [a sigh] so frustrating.

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[mashespotatoes]

Backwards is certainly a direction I'd rather not go. But I suppose it makes more sense you wouldn't remember if you had gone backwards, I mean, that's more like re-experiencing something for the second time.

Or, suppose it's like parallel universes as discussed with Schrödinger's cat. Sort of like verschränkung, I guess.

voice;

[magyarfujoshi]

I think the existence of humans from Earth that don't know us--and perhaps especially the second Denmark--proves the existence of parallel universes, and their intersection here. But how does one cross between them?

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[mashespotatoes]

Well, I imagine this, therefore, is a crossroads.

But I don't think any of us would want to be go to another parallel universe. Even one that is seems almost exactly the same as ours. It could be possible that, for instance, when my brother was here as the GDR, he was a different Prussia than the one who came after that from 1871. I mean, there wouldn't be any kind of noticeable difference, other than one was here later in history than the other. I understand the idea of moving forward through history as a nation, but moving backwards? It's counter-intuitive.

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[magyarfujoshi]

...I'd never thought of it like that. If we leave, do we return to our own universes? Or to a parallel version of our own universe? Or even... one of the hundreds that the others here come from? Is it really a blessing to leave, or is our destination as unsure as the timing? And how many versions of us are there?

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[mashespotatoes]

I don't know, but they're all interesting questions. At least I'm lucky in that I went back where I left off when I went home, but what if next time it isn't that way?

voice;

[magyarfujoshi]

We have no way to know. Experience is so erratic there's no real way to be sure.

voice;

[mashespotatoes]

The only thing we can do is go along with it, I suppose.

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[magyarfujoshi]

...

I miss the days when we were sure we could leave.

voice;

[mashespotatoes]

We've become complacent.

...I'm sorry.