a release, random, inspired with overwhelming thoughts of him
I have fallen in love all over again
though it is not the same as before
neither better nor worse
just different
but wonderful as ever
no specific moment or mood
there was nothing out of the ordinary said
there was just love
a realization
a slight grasp of how much love there truly was
much too much to realize but enough to make your head spin
enough to tease you for being so naive as to thinking you understood before
what was beginning to come clear has all been blurred again
the fascination of getting to the know the people that have known him all his life
that have helped to mold him
to get a sense of how he became
they are all wonderful
through them my admiration grows
they show me a side of him I could never see all on my own
he really is amazing
I wonder if people can see all that I see
it is not possible to love anything this much
love is not the right word
that would make it simple
it is not simple
I don't understand why or how but I don't question it
I can't
it is just there
lingering wherever I am
in whatever I do
it has become everything
without imposing or taking away anything that is me
my roots remain the same
I am still me
but there is more of me now
it is comfortable
but not complacent
never complacent
there is too much intrigue
I am always learning more
loving more
without asking for anything everything comes
inspiration shines then fades
but his is constant
a constant inspiration
allows me to create
we are real
we are true
it is pure
not rational
ever so much more than slightly insane
lost in the dreams and reality that is him
that is us
lost in these thoughts
lost in the memories
I smile
life makes no sense
it is chaos
but chaos with him is everything
everything I love
all that I hope for
impossible to understand but an overwhelming drive to try
he is my happy thought
just enough to get me off the ground
thats where I thrive
every moment
all my love
though it is not the same as before
neither better nor worse
just different
but wonderful as ever
no specific moment or mood
there was nothing out of the ordinary said
there was just love
a realization
a slight grasp of how much love there truly was
much too much to realize but enough to make your head spin
enough to tease you for being so naive as to thinking you understood before
what was beginning to come clear has all been blurred again
the fascination of getting to the know the people that have known him all his life
that have helped to mold him
to get a sense of how he became
they are all wonderful
through them my admiration grows
they show me a side of him I could never see all on my own
he really is amazing
I wonder if people can see all that I see
it is not possible to love anything this much
love is not the right word
that would make it simple
it is not simple
I don't understand why or how but I don't question it
I can't
it is just there
lingering wherever I am
in whatever I do
it has become everything
without imposing or taking away anything that is me
my roots remain the same
I am still me
but there is more of me now
it is comfortable
but not complacent
never complacent
there is too much intrigue
I am always learning more
loving more
without asking for anything everything comes
inspiration shines then fades
but his is constant
a constant inspiration
allows me to create
we are real
we are true
it is pure
not rational
ever so much more than slightly insane
lost in the dreams and reality that is him
that is us
lost in these thoughts
lost in the memories
I smile
life makes no sense
it is chaos
but chaos with him is everything
everything I love
all that I hope for
impossible to understand but an overwhelming drive to try
he is my happy thought
just enough to get me off the ground
thats where I thrive
every moment
all my love