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Today sucked...beyond belief. Well, it started out good and then turned into shitty shitty shittiness. Cate skipped school to come into Providence Place with me and Jill. We first had lunch at Cheesecake factory. 'Twas good. Bitchy waitress thought. Tip was left in quarters ha. Then we got Da's birthday present and Father's Day presents and then got on the train to come home...where I couldn't find my cell phone. So we were originally on the train that was to leave @ 515 but I needed to look for my phone so we got off and decided to look for 45 min and take the 600 home.
We asked people in the train station if a cell phone had been turned in but no, only one for Eric or something. Then we went back to the mall and it was no where to be found then. I was a mess. Crying my eyes out and such. So then with no luck, we walked back to the train station, but on the walk there a car full of boys started whistling at me and Jill and asked us to call and we both wanted to flip them all off, just because I was in such a bad mood. Argh.
So we get on the train and come home and Da and Darcy show up @ my house so we hang out even though I'm not talking or anything cuz I'm so sad and then Dad calls to tel me he's picking me up and he starts yelling @ me for something and then Mom calls and I break down on the phone and won't tell her what is wrong but Cate tells her and she says Mom says she's not mad at me and loves me and stuff which is good to hear. I bet she's only saying that thought because I'm so upset. So then the dog gets loose and I chase him around, watch him almost get hit by cars and I'm just loosing it at that point, the dog was being such an asshole and I'm just constantly crying because I was already in a bad enough mood and I finally get him and go home.
Then dad shows up and Jill Da and Dan leave and Dad sees me crying and feels bad for yelling at me and finds out about my phone and tells me he will buy me a new one. I feel so fucking spoiled. It was my own damn fault for being irresponsible. Ugh but I am more than grateful he is getting me a new one. He might get one too. That would be really cool. So then Me Dad Ann Mick and Cate all go out to dinner even though I feel too sick to eat.
Then we get home around 10. I talk to some people online who make me feel a ton better...basically by talking about anything other than my bad day. Was very nice. Hugs and kisses to all of you, you know who you are. XOXO.
Now It's 1:40something and I'm not tired. I have had such problems getting to sleep lately. I can't get to slee till 3 or 4. It sucks. I need help. Badly.
But tonight was good. Dinner made me feel better...probably because I didn't want to cry in front of everyone there so I didn't. Just being with my dad makes me feel so good though. He deffinatley brings out the best in me. If there's one person who does, it is him. I love my dad. And my mom. Then we came home and I know I'm repeating myself but I had such good conversations tonight. Ok enough Maggie. Go do something until you fall asleep. Like what? Think of something. Argh fine.
Conversations with myself...I really do need help...
with love only for others and not myself,
maggie
We asked people in the train station if a cell phone had been turned in but no, only one for Eric or something. Then we went back to the mall and it was no where to be found then. I was a mess. Crying my eyes out and such. So then with no luck, we walked back to the train station, but on the walk there a car full of boys started whistling at me and Jill and asked us to call and we both wanted to flip them all off, just because I was in such a bad mood. Argh.
So we get on the train and come home and Da and Darcy show up @ my house so we hang out even though I'm not talking or anything cuz I'm so sad and then Dad calls to tel me he's picking me up and he starts yelling @ me for something and then Mom calls and I break down on the phone and won't tell her what is wrong but Cate tells her and she says Mom says she's not mad at me and loves me and stuff which is good to hear. I bet she's only saying that thought because I'm so upset. So then the dog gets loose and I chase him around, watch him almost get hit by cars and I'm just loosing it at that point, the dog was being such an asshole and I'm just constantly crying because I was already in a bad enough mood and I finally get him and go home.
Then dad shows up and Jill Da and Dan leave and Dad sees me crying and feels bad for yelling at me and finds out about my phone and tells me he will buy me a new one. I feel so fucking spoiled. It was my own damn fault for being irresponsible. Ugh but I am more than grateful he is getting me a new one. He might get one too. That would be really cool. So then Me Dad Ann Mick and Cate all go out to dinner even though I feel too sick to eat.
Then we get home around 10. I talk to some people online who make me feel a ton better...basically by talking about anything other than my bad day. Was very nice. Hugs and kisses to all of you, you know who you are. XOXO.
Now It's 1:40something and I'm not tired. I have had such problems getting to sleep lately. I can't get to slee till 3 or 4. It sucks. I need help. Badly.
But tonight was good. Dinner made me feel better...probably because I didn't want to cry in front of everyone there so I didn't. Just being with my dad makes me feel so good though. He deffinatley brings out the best in me. If there's one person who does, it is him. I love my dad. And my mom. Then we came home and I know I'm repeating myself but I had such good conversations tonight. Ok enough Maggie. Go do something until you fall asleep. Like what? Think of something. Argh fine.
Conversations with myself...I really do need help...
with love only for others and not myself,
maggie