there is seriously no point in me having friends anymore...
these past few days, i dont seem to have any feelings about life..i mean usually i would joke around with my sis and start dissing her..but i dont seem like i want to anymore..my parents were proud of my sis in doing good in waterloo..but whenever i get high marks..they dont seem to notice it..well at least not as much as my sis..and i just realized that my dad knows ALOT of things..which kinda freaks me out..cause i dont want him to know so much about my school and life...it just puts even more pressure on me..
as for my old friends..i dont even know what to think anymore..we have definitely drifted off wayy too far for us to be back together..maybe i should have gone to st joes..but then i would be meeting practically the same people..which isnt bad..but i need some variaty...my friends not know it..but i sure do..i try to bring us back together..but one of them have to go spend time with her bf..and another spending time with her "gf"..and another..just busy with work..SHIT..this sucks so much!!..and i kinda realized that i have been "replaced" by this other girl..who i know..she is as close as i was to them before we went our separate ways...i mean NOTHING to them anymore..and i cant even do anything about it..this life is getting worse everyday...
as each day passes..i dont even think how i can survive the next..theres too much pain going through me right now..maybe one day..i will be alright..but definitely not now..i just want be somewhere peaceful right now..where no one will hurt me..bother me..just ALONE
*a clown is always making people laugh..but do they know how to laugh themselve??..in my case [NO]
as for my old friends..i dont even know what to think anymore..we have definitely drifted off wayy too far for us to be back together..maybe i should have gone to st joes..but then i would be meeting practically the same people..which isnt bad..but i need some variaty...my friends not know it..but i sure do..i try to bring us back together..but one of them have to go spend time with her bf..and another spending time with her "gf"..and another..just busy with work..SHIT..this sucks so much!!..and i kinda realized that i have been "replaced" by this other girl..who i know..she is as close as i was to them before we went our separate ways...i mean NOTHING to them anymore..and i cant even do anything about it..this life is getting worse everyday...
as each day passes..i dont even think how i can survive the next..theres too much pain going through me right now..maybe one day..i will be alright..but definitely not now..i just want be somewhere peaceful right now..where no one will hurt me..bother me..just ALONE
*a clown is always making people laugh..but do they know how to laugh themselve??..in my case [NO]