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Mags sandwich on vulva.
Pride was awesome. I had more fun than I have had in years. Part of the loveliness was hanging out with Renee again, seeing old friends and family to celebrate love.
I'm officially middle aged Queer lady. I dress for comfort and elaborate style over skin. My ensemble: giant red hat with feather, red tank under white and black lace pattern corset, green skirt, black lace stocking and heels did not get photographed in entirety. I scold and gently redirect drunken teeney boppers. I refrain from making moves because I respect the other person.
Pride always riles up my queer sense, that I haven't been living up to. Most of our friends are straight. I've dated two people 1-3 times to failure in the last 3 years. Time to up my game.
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Chatted with other queers about school and life goals and dreams. My views on life path and making a living have changed so much since I was in school. School is so linear-- study for years, get a job, work 40+ hrs a week, until you are 65, buy a house and then you retire and die with a bunch of stuff you bought with the money. Now I think more about quality of life as more important than working or school, or things for that matter. Every once in a while I think I should go back to school and get a doctorate but I would much rather get my hands dirty in permaculture to create sustainable ecosystems. I don't want to be in a sterile classroom, but in the living world, interacting with people and nature. Make the homestead, a community center, and healing space. I get excited thinking about all the alternative possibilities to what is the norm in society. I mean if you wanted to travel the world, be a travel bum, and then teach English for a little bit here and there that is an exciting life choice. Even a little bit of money can go a long way if you know how to use it, especially in developing countries.
Most of our educational system is useless to innovation, creativity, or developing curious intellect. It doesn't teach us how to run a business, manage finances or have good communication. It basically turns children into a conveyor belt to respond to bells and structure of industrial workhouse. I've been influenced a ton by John Taylor Gatto's book Dumbing Us Down as well as educational experts on TED talks and the like. I can't imagine why anyone would willingly put themselves through school just to get a degree in something they don't feel passionately about.
And maybe I want to recruit more people for our homestead rather than in an ivory tower..