dreading an actual five day week...

[mags2425]

so, i rarely update and even rarely read these things anymore. im not quite sure why. i think why i dont read has something to do wiht the fact that the only thing i ever seem to read about in here is how unhappy people are with things, and beign peoples friends and reading that is def a downer just cuz everyone kinda gets bummed when they know people are so sad and you being there doesnt really help. given, i can totally relate to the bummerness and lonlyness everyone feels in here adn i feel the same thing, but just to read about it liek from afar just makes me really sad and feeling like we cant jsut make eachother happy for some reason. i think thats why im really never wanting to read these, but i know that even though things get to us, i think we all still make eachother happy. i think its just easy to talk aobut the bad things that you dont know how to express in real life over live journal. it makes sense. so, lets see, why i dotn really liek update. mainly cuz i end up doing the same thing and making myself feel liek my life sucks and im so unhappy. im not unhappy. i dont think anyone really should be. people are too unhappy in this world. yeah, shit gets me down, but when i really think about it, im pretty damn lucky. i mean, i have very few hardships in my life adn pretty much have the opportunity to get whatever i want adn defentally have all i need in life. family, friends, love, goals, opportunity. i dont know what else im searchign for. i mean i know im searching for soemthing that i havent found yet. we all are. thats why we always feel that our life could be so much better all the time. somethign that makes everythign better, a good change, but it seems like everytime my life changes for the better and i get waht ive been wanting, i just end up wanting even more than taht. im def searchign for soemthing, but for now i think im gonna try adn enjoy the journey until i find it. plus, maybe what we are all really searching for is content. i dotn know. dont care. so ive got alot of things to look forward to lately. prom and graduating and italy. prom; hello!! best thing ever. i mean common, the girls all get to get dressed up and feel like the prettiest girl in the world for a night and have one night of soem guy treating you liek a complete princess, pretending liek you have no financial worries int he world adn riding aroudn in a limo/party bus...and jsut experiencing this all wiht the people who matter most to you adn no one upset that theyre there. its perfect. plus, staying out all night and no care in the world. wow. plus, italy, spring break awesome!! anyways, im gonna head out. peace out.

oh yeah, another reason why i never post, no one ever leaves me comments, so leave me some....yay