Striving to be better
So, it's late, but for once I'm not up this late because I was reding a novel or watching tv/movies. No, no, I have been working on thesis things.
I just wrote four pages of my methods section, which at this point is only a bare-bones rough draft, without the references I know I need to throw in there to justify why I am doing what I am. Anyway, I can easily make it a good, solid ten pages with the additions I know I need. However, I think I need to wait until I've actually employed the methods, so it doesn't all seem so speculative. I'm also been hammering out some issues of research design and sharpening up my in-depth interview questions. Can you believe.. I don't yet have IRB approval yet? That's right. I'm just that much of a loser. In all honesty, this evening's six hours or so of work is the most I've really truly done for my thesis all semester, not counting the little piddly stuff. Yes, I do suck. You see? It is even mre odd that I am this far behind, because research (and the accompanying analysis) has always been one of my favorite things about pr/communications.
Why am I even writing this? It is so very incredibly boring. But, at 3:30am I appear to be on a roll, and for once I don't feel sick to my stomach when thinking of my thesis, so I thought I'd share. You kids don't know how stressed out I get when thinking about it, which makes me want to avoid it and block it out, which is what I believe has lead to my semester of apathy. I could easily have had at least the chapter of literature review and my introduction easily finished by now, even if my research weren't done (or even started). Ah, but no. Lots I had done previously & saved was lost in the computer crash and I hadn't the heart to reapply myself. Let's all just pray that my current streak of determination lasts more than a week. Honestly. Please do.
I just wrote four pages of my methods section, which at this point is only a bare-bones rough draft, without the references I know I need to throw in there to justify why I am doing what I am. Anyway, I can easily make it a good, solid ten pages with the additions I know I need. However, I think I need to wait until I've actually employed the methods, so it doesn't all seem so speculative. I'm also been hammering out some issues of research design and sharpening up my in-depth interview questions. Can you believe.. I don't yet have IRB approval yet? That's right. I'm just that much of a loser. In all honesty, this evening's six hours or so of work is the most I've really truly done for my thesis all semester, not counting the little piddly stuff. Yes, I do suck. You see? It is even mre odd that I am this far behind, because research (and the accompanying analysis) has always been one of my favorite things about pr/communications.
Why am I even writing this? It is so very incredibly boring. But, at 3:30am I appear to be on a roll, and for once I don't feel sick to my stomach when thinking of my thesis, so I thought I'd share. You kids don't know how stressed out I get when thinking about it, which makes me want to avoid it and block it out, which is what I believe has lead to my semester of apathy. I could easily have had at least the chapter of literature review and my introduction easily finished by now, even if my research weren't done (or even started). Ah, but no. Lots I had done previously & saved was lost in the computer crash and I hadn't the heart to reapply myself. Let's all just pray that my current streak of determination lasts more than a week. Honestly. Please do.