Nov 20, 2004 23:08
This weekend wasn't very eventful. I went to services last night and worked tonight.
I realized at services how much I love being Jewish. How I am so excited to grow up, have a family and come to synagogue for family services so my children can get an understanding of how important it is to be Jewish. I mean I am still not sure whether I want to be a Rabbi or not. I mean, I love Judaism and I love being Jewish, but as I see my dad come home everyday and how stressed and overwhelmed he is by the job, it makes me feel very hesitant. Yet I look at how much people love him and look to him for support. I want to be there for people, and help people and I love Judaism, so maybe being a Rabbi would be a good job for me.
I saw somebody at Starbucks tonight (an aquaitence) and I saw him with a girl...cuddling with her, holding her hand. I realized how much I want to be loved. I am beyond being with somebody and just hooking up all the time. I just want to feel important, loved, and worth something. I can't have a boyfriend right now because I am too busy to begin with...3 jobs, school, always being out of town, and I'm just trying to keep the friends that I have that I never get to talk to or see. But I realized how much I am looking forward to finding somebody really significant. I am looking forward to finding that one true person that loves me for the person that I am. I want to feel beautiful to somebody, to feel loved by somebody. I hope that one day that may come true. I'm past the "lets just hook up the entire time" stage. I want to find somebody that is willing to just sit and cuddle and have a serious conversation with me. Basically, I just want to be loved.
YAY for Thanksgiving and going to Cincinnati. I love it so much. I love being with my family. They are the most important people to me, and its really hard not seeing them as often as I'd like. I'm excited to be in a restaurant and be the loudest people in there, and to go bowling and see a movie, and eat SKYLINE and GRAETERS! YES! I love grandparents. I love cousins and aunts. I love family.
EIE- I am sorry I am not coming to New York. You are all in my thoughts and I will be thinking of you and wishing I was there. P.S....ELYSE AND HARRISON!?! PEACE!
L'hitraot!