You dance through the pain until you can't absolutely stand it, then you cry when you realise your life is meaningless without swing. Or at least that's what I would do. Then I'd probably dance anyway and pump myself with painkillers, but I don't recommend that part...
Life is not meaningless without swing. I discussed this with Reece. If swing is all you have, then what happens if you lose a leg? Life is worth living just for the sake of being alive, because it's true what they say. Life is what you make of it. And I do dance through the pain. My wrist has been killing me since Friday. I still did Saturday, the performance, and the workshops, so I think I'm good for dancing. It only affects my work.
I know you dance through the pain, I used to worry to death about you and the fact that you did that, until you told me to stop. I was saying what I would do if something like that happend to me. If I lost my leg, I honestly don't know what I would do, there is nothing else out there for me other than swing, so to me, life is meaningless without it. Didn't mean to come off as if I was attacking you or something, if that's how it sounds.
Sorry, but I disagree. I feel like life is never meaningless. It's worth living, just to live. The fact that a person is a alive, makes life worth it. 'Tis how I feel, anyway.
You're right, and ironically I just realised that about twelve minutes ago. Up until then, I didn't have anything outside of dance, but I do now, or someone rather. Not even when I was with you did I find my life having meaning outside of swing, because, well, you were like Swing in a guy's form. I just realised that he gives me a reason to get up and go to school, he gives me a reason to live my life to the fullest, and most of all, he gives me a reason to be happy. He's still second to swing, and he knows and understands why, but I am so extremely grateful for him. He is my 'diligo, quod vita. Sit meus totus.'
You still aren't getting it. You say you have a reason to live, but I'm suggesting that life is its own reason. You really shouldn't need anything outside of that. Or anyone. You shouldn't "need" someone for your life to have meaning.
...and it's funny how what you say now drastically contradicts what you were saying in November, but if that's what you believe, then go 4 it.
Everybody's different Jason, and the point I was trying to get across was that, I am miserable, completely and totally outside of dancing. I have no motivation to get up and live except for days when I am going to dance. If I lost a leg, I wouldn't go kill myself, I would still be living, but I wouldn't really live my life. I'd be miserable, and there woudn't be any reason to for me to be happy, which is my personal definition of living. Yes, I'd be alive, but I wouldn't be too happy. Ethan gives me a reason to be happy, even if I lost both a leg and an arm (although I certainly hope that doesn't happen) ...and it's funny how what you said/believed one day in December drastically contracdicts what you said/believed the very next morning. If you can do this, I'm pretty sure it's ok for me to change what I believe five months later.
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...and it's funny how what you say now drastically contradicts what you were saying in November, but if that's what you believe, then go 4 it.
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...and it's funny how what you said/believed one day in December drastically contracdicts what you said/believed the very next morning. If you can do this, I'm pretty sure it's ok for me to change what I believe five months later.
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