love letter to you
My dearest Henna,
I'm deeply regretting about what happened yesterday. I guess some people just cannot sympathize animals huh? Even though you are my favouritest cat in the whole wide world. But there are people who live with us who regard you as "their" pet but they actually do not lift a single finger to take care of you, kitkat. I'm really sorry you have to go through all the trauma yesternight :[ I talked to you yesterday when I ran away from home with you in tow. That, I did not regret. Bringing you out of harms way is my top priority. You ARE my priority, baby.
It's sad to understand how old you are getting and how age is catching up on you. You're a strong girl, Henna! I know you can live up til I'm all married & I want you to live comfortably with me. Because you know you're always my baby! You can sleep whereever you want, sleep all day for all I care. I'm still continuing with little surprise treats and yummy delights for your tum-tums too! That's your favourite hobby besides sleeping that is.
You know, its kinda weird that Im able to connect to you ever since I first met you at Lubna's house during her engagement. I was only after fat Bilu of course because who can resist a fat white persian? But there you are at the top landing of the stairs looking after Bilu. Then I found out that your previous owners didnt really take care of you guys so well. You guys were kept in a wire mesh cage like a chicken coup and sprayed with water from the hose during your "bath". Cold water isnt it? Without cat shampoo? Sigh. You poor kitkat. And they fed you with leftovers and cat biscuits. Shame on them for treating you so badly. Nobody was there to play with both of you thats why both of you stick to each other. You're so inseperable.
Until my Mom took Bilu home and left you there in the big empty house. Bilu couldnt sleep that night at our house. He kept on crying (his meows were very heart wrenching) that I begged Mom to get you. So the second night you came to our house. You were scared! But when you saw Bilu, both of you adapted really well into our household. I gave you & Bilu a proper shower and noted your differences. Haha, you hate the warm water and the lathering of kitty shampoo but LOVES the hairdryer! You can shift your own body so that the hot air will be blowing at the right places. But Bilu is the total opposite! He's the easiest to bathe because he'll just curl up in a ball. He's pretty angry at the hairdryer though. I took 3 hours drying the thick fur! Both of you loves fighting for food because Bilu is always eating out of your bowl Haha!
Eversince Bilu passed away on CNY more than 5 years ago, you seemed lost. I'm sorry you lost your one and only best friend, baby. I remember hugging you tight when you were meowing because you couldnt find Bilu. I was extra protective of you after that because I did not want to lose you too. My time with Bilu was too short for me to get to know him very well. You've been living with us for a good over 10years now. But I'm sorry your life was as hell as mine for the first bit because of nenek.
Thank you for being there for me when I'm alone. You make me feel safe all the time. Remember when the family left me all alone in the house whenever they're gone for holidays? You're always there for me to talk to, watch tv with and play with. I dont know how special God created you but I noticed that you react on my feelings. Remember that one night that I was just sad about Momo and was crying on the bed? You were there, sitting at the edge looking at me intently. I was quietly sobbing and you came and lick my salty tears. Eww, but you made me feel so much better because it felt ticklish, you silly girl. You slept with me after that. Both of our favourite hobby!
You love to give me surprises too. Because you're always sleeping, I never expect you to be around me. But when I least expect, there you are, sitting down facing me whenever I turn around. Kinda creepy at times. Talking about sleeping too much, sorry that Im always either taking unglam shots of you sleeping or poking you or shaking you really hard to wake you up! I just need assurance that you're still alive, baby. I love you.
You know what else that makes you special? Your meow! although I dont really call that meowing. You're a quiet girl but very observant despite your age. You only meow when you need something urgent. That's why Im always the one running to look for you when you meow. sigh. why didnt you meow yesterday when your tummy wasnt feeling so good? At least you should meow after you vomited or pooped accidentally on the floor yesterday. Either momma or me wouldnt scold you for that. We understand what you're gg thru baby. We understand that the cold weather is making your tum-tums feel weird. Besides, you already accidentally pooped on my bag the other day. You meowed right? See, you told me. At least it gives me a reason to throw away that bag. Nobody scolded you right? Well I did nag at you but I wasnt angry at you. I was more concerned about your health, kitkat. Unlike some people who only see you from the outside but never actually bother to understand what youre going through.
She just had to clean up your accidental mess. That's all. Why must she go on further to aggreviate the matter by insulting you? She dont have the right to hurt you like that. If im there at that point of time, I would have just cleaned after you, baby. I'm sorry SHE had to be the one. Too bad that this is the rare jewels that she had to pick up. I dont understand why must she be so angry with you. It wasnt your fault, kitkat. Im not regretting going flesh on flesh though. Her mouth is so rude and vulgar, she ought to be embarrassed of 24 year old mouth. Our little sibblings and parents are around, who is she to have the right to say all that degrading words under Dad's roof?! I could have thrown the tanks harder on the floor but I was really trying really hard to control my temper, Henna. I'm not a profanity person. You know how physical I can get if anyone pushed my limit. She did yesterday. So she got a little of it. I was really channeling all the energy in my forearm into my head to think for you, Henna. She's not your owner so she dont have the right to throw you out of the house. Remember that. The next time she tries to do that or harm you, please use your sharp claw (that I cleaned and trimmed for you) to either claw her eyeballs out of just deface her. If you feel a little more daring you can just slit her throat too.
She just had to clean up one accidental mess. And she assumes authority to throw you out of the house?
THE ANSWER IS NO.
You are like any human being out there who deserves a roof to live under.
You are my baby, she has no right!
Thats why I brought you out yesterday. Did you hear all the degrading words she shouted at me? As if she does all the cleaning in the house. As if she cleans that bedroom she's sleeping comfortably every single night on a nice bed while I sleep on the sofa every single night! Henna, I think you're the only one who understands me. You were there with me when I clean the room FOR THEM as if its my bedroom when Im actually sleeping in the living room for nearly 2 years now. Do you think I deserved to be shouted at like that yesterday?
She is totally unfit to be a mother if she cannot even treat animals nicely. Just look at her fishes. their water is so murky they are swimming in their own shit. She cant even clean the house without making so much noise nagging at all of us as if she owns the house. Can you stand her, Henna? Because if I cannot even stand my own flesh and blood, I dont know who else can.
I know how much you hate your cage, baby. My heart literally hurt when I was assembling it yesterday. I'm sorry I made your fur wet yesterday. I'm sorry all that traumatized you that you didnt even fight to get into the cage. But I brought you far away from the crazy self-delusional woman, baby. I hope you understood whatever I told you yesterday by the river.
Remember the two women in your life that truly love, care and understand you, Henna. It's me and Momma.
I love you like my first child. Nobody can ever replace you if you're gone in the future.
I love you so much, kittykat.
Live longer, please. For me. I promise I'll bring you to a better home. Momo & me will take care of you & Momma.
Love you forever,
Julie
I'm deeply regretting about what happened yesterday. I guess some people just cannot sympathize animals huh? Even though you are my favouritest cat in the whole wide world. But there are people who live with us who regard you as "their" pet but they actually do not lift a single finger to take care of you, kitkat. I'm really sorry you have to go through all the trauma yesternight :[ I talked to you yesterday when I ran away from home with you in tow. That, I did not regret. Bringing you out of harms way is my top priority. You ARE my priority, baby.
It's sad to understand how old you are getting and how age is catching up on you. You're a strong girl, Henna! I know you can live up til I'm all married & I want you to live comfortably with me. Because you know you're always my baby! You can sleep whereever you want, sleep all day for all I care. I'm still continuing with little surprise treats and yummy delights for your tum-tums too! That's your favourite hobby besides sleeping that is.
You know, its kinda weird that Im able to connect to you ever since I first met you at Lubna's house during her engagement. I was only after fat Bilu of course because who can resist a fat white persian? But there you are at the top landing of the stairs looking after Bilu. Then I found out that your previous owners didnt really take care of you guys so well. You guys were kept in a wire mesh cage like a chicken coup and sprayed with water from the hose during your "bath". Cold water isnt it? Without cat shampoo? Sigh. You poor kitkat. And they fed you with leftovers and cat biscuits. Shame on them for treating you so badly. Nobody was there to play with both of you thats why both of you stick to each other. You're so inseperable.
Until my Mom took Bilu home and left you there in the big empty house. Bilu couldnt sleep that night at our house. He kept on crying (his meows were very heart wrenching) that I begged Mom to get you. So the second night you came to our house. You were scared! But when you saw Bilu, both of you adapted really well into our household. I gave you & Bilu a proper shower and noted your differences. Haha, you hate the warm water and the lathering of kitty shampoo but LOVES the hairdryer! You can shift your own body so that the hot air will be blowing at the right places. But Bilu is the total opposite! He's the easiest to bathe because he'll just curl up in a ball. He's pretty angry at the hairdryer though. I took 3 hours drying the thick fur! Both of you loves fighting for food because Bilu is always eating out of your bowl Haha!
Eversince Bilu passed away on CNY more than 5 years ago, you seemed lost. I'm sorry you lost your one and only best friend, baby. I remember hugging you tight when you were meowing because you couldnt find Bilu. I was extra protective of you after that because I did not want to lose you too. My time with Bilu was too short for me to get to know him very well. You've been living with us for a good over 10years now. But I'm sorry your life was as hell as mine for the first bit because of nenek.
Thank you for being there for me when I'm alone. You make me feel safe all the time. Remember when the family left me all alone in the house whenever they're gone for holidays? You're always there for me to talk to, watch tv with and play with. I dont know how special God created you but I noticed that you react on my feelings. Remember that one night that I was just sad about Momo and was crying on the bed? You were there, sitting at the edge looking at me intently. I was quietly sobbing and you came and lick my salty tears. Eww, but you made me feel so much better because it felt ticklish, you silly girl. You slept with me after that. Both of our favourite hobby!
You love to give me surprises too. Because you're always sleeping, I never expect you to be around me. But when I least expect, there you are, sitting down facing me whenever I turn around. Kinda creepy at times. Talking about sleeping too much, sorry that Im always either taking unglam shots of you sleeping or poking you or shaking you really hard to wake you up! I just need assurance that you're still alive, baby. I love you.
You know what else that makes you special? Your meow! although I dont really call that meowing. You're a quiet girl but very observant despite your age. You only meow when you need something urgent. That's why Im always the one running to look for you when you meow. sigh. why didnt you meow yesterday when your tummy wasnt feeling so good? At least you should meow after you vomited or pooped accidentally on the floor yesterday. Either momma or me wouldnt scold you for that. We understand what you're gg thru baby. We understand that the cold weather is making your tum-tums feel weird. Besides, you already accidentally pooped on my bag the other day. You meowed right? See, you told me. At least it gives me a reason to throw away that bag. Nobody scolded you right? Well I did nag at you but I wasnt angry at you. I was more concerned about your health, kitkat. Unlike some people who only see you from the outside but never actually bother to understand what youre going through.
She just had to clean up your accidental mess. That's all. Why must she go on further to aggreviate the matter by insulting you? She dont have the right to hurt you like that. If im there at that point of time, I would have just cleaned after you, baby. I'm sorry SHE had to be the one. Too bad that this is the rare jewels that she had to pick up. I dont understand why must she be so angry with you. It wasnt your fault, kitkat. Im not regretting going flesh on flesh though. Her mouth is so rude and vulgar, she ought to be embarrassed of 24 year old mouth. Our little sibblings and parents are around, who is she to have the right to say all that degrading words under Dad's roof?! I could have thrown the tanks harder on the floor but I was really trying really hard to control my temper, Henna. I'm not a profanity person. You know how physical I can get if anyone pushed my limit. She did yesterday. So she got a little of it. I was really channeling all the energy in my forearm into my head to think for you, Henna. She's not your owner so she dont have the right to throw you out of the house. Remember that. The next time she tries to do that or harm you, please use your sharp claw (that I cleaned and trimmed for you) to either claw her eyeballs out of just deface her. If you feel a little more daring you can just slit her throat too.
She just had to clean up one accidental mess. And she assumes authority to throw you out of the house?
THE ANSWER IS NO.
You are like any human being out there who deserves a roof to live under.
You are my baby, she has no right!
Thats why I brought you out yesterday. Did you hear all the degrading words she shouted at me? As if she does all the cleaning in the house. As if she cleans that bedroom she's sleeping comfortably every single night on a nice bed while I sleep on the sofa every single night! Henna, I think you're the only one who understands me. You were there with me when I clean the room FOR THEM as if its my bedroom when Im actually sleeping in the living room for nearly 2 years now. Do you think I deserved to be shouted at like that yesterday?
She is totally unfit to be a mother if she cannot even treat animals nicely. Just look at her fishes. their water is so murky they are swimming in their own shit. She cant even clean the house without making so much noise nagging at all of us as if she owns the house. Can you stand her, Henna? Because if I cannot even stand my own flesh and blood, I dont know who else can.
I know how much you hate your cage, baby. My heart literally hurt when I was assembling it yesterday. I'm sorry I made your fur wet yesterday. I'm sorry all that traumatized you that you didnt even fight to get into the cage. But I brought you far away from the crazy self-delusional woman, baby. I hope you understood whatever I told you yesterday by the river.
Remember the two women in your life that truly love, care and understand you, Henna. It's me and Momma.
I love you like my first child. Nobody can ever replace you if you're gone in the future.
I love you so much, kittykat.
Live longer, please. For me. I promise I'll bring you to a better home. Momo & me will take care of you & Momma.
Love you forever,
Julie