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i feel numb.
to the point of no expression.
this week has been the worst of my life.
on sept 2, 2007
my grandfather passed away
we knew it was going to happen
but it just brought back all the pain i felt
when my grandmother and uncle
passed away..
i cant even express in words how horrible
it feels to know he was goin to die ...
but i still had some small hope that maybe
he wouldnt?...but it was all crushed when
my dad yelled up the stairs pop pop passed away
thanks asshole..you could have made the trip upstairs
to tell me...
everything else that has gone wrong has faded
into the backround. except for the occasional
annoying phone call i get every now and then
from some fuck head who wants to tell me that
i owe 2800 dollars...
stupid fucks...kill yourself honestly. i dont want to deal
with you or your stupid car that i backed into
I DONT CARE.
i woke up today feeling optomistic because i would
get to see blake around 1 or 2 as both his parents and himself had told me
until i got a call from blake at 12 telling me they didnt even pack up yet
...i took it really personally that they didnt leave early..
like come on really? everything ive done for you
every time that ive been there for you guys
watched your dog
cleaned up his shit.
and the least you can do is try to get home
a little early because my grandfather passed away
and i just want blake to be here because i am an emotional
wreck...
i just want to scream at you...
theres nothing i can do to change it .
i took it to heart ...and maybe i shouldnt have
texting me..and saying sorry about my pop pop
were leaving now...means nothing to me .
sorry means nothing
getting home a little early because someone
you supposibly "care about" is going through
a very hard time...means more than a stupid
fucking text message.
im sitting here...and im so anxious that two extra strength
tylenol pms which made me completely crash last night
cannot even make me tierd..
i have so much on my mind.
blake coming home
my stupid fuck head parents taking alexander and allys name
off the obituary and school being so close
my thoughts are everywhere
every hope that i could be normal and not an anxious
mess have been crushed thsi week.
with a simple sentence
"if u think you are going to get medicine to help you through
this you must be mistaken"
thanks mom...i hope taking them out of the obituary
eats at u at night u stupid fuck
who do u think u are anymore?.
asshole.
to the point of no expression.
this week has been the worst of my life.
on sept 2, 2007
my grandfather passed away
we knew it was going to happen
but it just brought back all the pain i felt
when my grandmother and uncle
passed away..
i cant even express in words how horrible
it feels to know he was goin to die ...
but i still had some small hope that maybe
he wouldnt?...but it was all crushed when
my dad yelled up the stairs pop pop passed away
thanks asshole..you could have made the trip upstairs
to tell me...
everything else that has gone wrong has faded
into the backround. except for the occasional
annoying phone call i get every now and then
from some fuck head who wants to tell me that
i owe 2800 dollars...
stupid fucks...kill yourself honestly. i dont want to deal
with you or your stupid car that i backed into
I DONT CARE.
i woke up today feeling optomistic because i would
get to see blake around 1 or 2 as both his parents and himself had told me
until i got a call from blake at 12 telling me they didnt even pack up yet
...i took it really personally that they didnt leave early..
like come on really? everything ive done for you
every time that ive been there for you guys
watched your dog
cleaned up his shit.
and the least you can do is try to get home
a little early because my grandfather passed away
and i just want blake to be here because i am an emotional
wreck...
i just want to scream at you...
theres nothing i can do to change it .
i took it to heart ...and maybe i shouldnt have
texting me..and saying sorry about my pop pop
were leaving now...means nothing to me .
sorry means nothing
getting home a little early because someone
you supposibly "care about" is going through
a very hard time...means more than a stupid
fucking text message.
im sitting here...and im so anxious that two extra strength
tylenol pms which made me completely crash last night
cannot even make me tierd..
i have so much on my mind.
blake coming home
my stupid fuck head parents taking alexander and allys name
off the obituary and school being so close
my thoughts are everywhere
every hope that i could be normal and not an anxious
mess have been crushed thsi week.
with a simple sentence
"if u think you are going to get medicine to help you through
this you must be mistaken"
thanks mom...i hope taking them out of the obituary
eats at u at night u stupid fuck
who do u think u are anymore?.
asshole.