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I really should be either doing my math homework (which I, once again, don't understand) or working on my Leadership & Teambuilding presentation (which is a waste of time, but I need to do it to get my grade). I obviously cannot be bothered to do either at the moment. SMUs interesting, but all the projects & presentations are insanely time-consuming. Plus I seem to have two CCAs....
Literally half of my closest friends have flown off to USA in an attempt to achieve a better/ more interesting education and valuable life experiences, and all that jazz.
I miss them.
Plus there's the small fact of me still being stuck in Singapore for the eleventh year. So much for, oh, we're only going to Singapore for 3 to 5 years, then we're definitely going back!
I guess now that I'm in uni, I'm seeing people (I'm not the only Caucasian!) on exchange here, and the friends who could have left. I mean, I'm technically Czech. I can speak, read and write it fluently, I know the culture, the food, (the alcohol!) and the country. I have the passport which proclaims my Czech-ness, but I can't say I actually feel a strong connection to the place. I lived there for a grand total of four and a half years (with a break in between), then in different parts of America, and then I've been no-so-happily stagnant in Singapore for eleven years. I don't think of myself as Czech because I feel lost (literally and figuratively) whenever I go back or whenever I'm in a Czech community. I don't think of myself as Singaporean and I definitely don't think of myself as American.
I guess I started thinking about all this recently because it seems that everyone I meet at SMU asks me whether I'm an International student, whether I'm on exchange, how long I've been here etc etc etc. I guess it's kind of a good thing, that I have international exposure and all that jazz, but I don't really feel like I belong anywhere in particular. It's rather sad, considering how bloody long I've been in Singapore, but I really can't wait to get the hell out of this place, even though it's goin to take another 4 to 7 years more. (Damn government bond.) Yes, I do realise that Singapore has some great advantages like the safety, but there are some things about this place that irk me to no end.
Right, as always, math awaiteth.
I can't seem to get away from it...
Literally half of my closest friends have flown off to USA in an attempt to achieve a better/ more interesting education and valuable life experiences, and all that jazz.
I miss them.
Plus there's the small fact of me still being stuck in Singapore for the eleventh year. So much for, oh, we're only going to Singapore for 3 to 5 years, then we're definitely going back!
I guess now that I'm in uni, I'm seeing people (I'm not the only Caucasian!) on exchange here, and the friends who could have left. I mean, I'm technically Czech. I can speak, read and write it fluently, I know the culture, the food, (the alcohol!) and the country. I have the passport which proclaims my Czech-ness, but I can't say I actually feel a strong connection to the place. I lived there for a grand total of four and a half years (with a break in between), then in different parts of America, and then I've been no-so-happily stagnant in Singapore for eleven years. I don't think of myself as Czech because I feel lost (literally and figuratively) whenever I go back or whenever I'm in a Czech community. I don't think of myself as Singaporean and I definitely don't think of myself as American.
I guess I started thinking about all this recently because it seems that everyone I meet at SMU asks me whether I'm an International student, whether I'm on exchange, how long I've been here etc etc etc. I guess it's kind of a good thing, that I have international exposure and all that jazz, but I don't really feel like I belong anywhere in particular. It's rather sad, considering how bloody long I've been in Singapore, but I really can't wait to get the hell out of this place, even though it's goin to take another 4 to 7 years more. (Damn government bond.) Yes, I do realise that Singapore has some great advantages like the safety, but there are some things about this place that irk me to no end.
Right, as always, math awaiteth.
I can't seem to get away from it...