it won't be so bad.
today, i re-learned solving the rubik's cubes. spontaneous recall. psychology hangover.
this is an interesting exercise, i'm typing everything with the monitor turned off.i have done nothing today but finish old tv series. i feel like a 40-year-old going through a midlife crisis. i'm floating into these other realities, where i'm a doctor or some comic book superhero or a pimp.
i'm rather saddened by the fact that today, nothing happened in my life. although i know that shouldn't be cause for concern, i've always felt like each day is important, and to be static even for a moment is to throw something away. i do not know what it is, or if it is actually valuable. all i know is that i've thrown it away. and i do not like disposing of things. i still have toys and shoes from when i was too young to know about the world and all the sadness that make it up.
i need a moment to space out.
....
i've come to realize that this blog is just another repository for whatever i cannot seem to throw away. it holds things which i should've gotten rid off a long time ago.there's something aboput throwing things away that gets to me. maybe it's all about being forgotten. i'm not entirely sure how all these things fit into the big picture. but i'm trying not to care for the moment.
i'm just really killing time until my download finishes. then i can spend another hour or so treating myself to another escape. i'm hoping in fall asleep early so as i won't be plagued by boredom later, when there is no show left to watch.
i need to do something.
i have to get out.
i have to get out of here.
i wonder how many typographical errors i've made.
this is an interesting exercise, i'm typing everything with the monitor turned off.i have done nothing today but finish old tv series. i feel like a 40-year-old going through a midlife crisis. i'm floating into these other realities, where i'm a doctor or some comic book superhero or a pimp.
i'm rather saddened by the fact that today, nothing happened in my life. although i know that shouldn't be cause for concern, i've always felt like each day is important, and to be static even for a moment is to throw something away. i do not know what it is, or if it is actually valuable. all i know is that i've thrown it away. and i do not like disposing of things. i still have toys and shoes from when i was too young to know about the world and all the sadness that make it up.
i need a moment to space out.
....
i've come to realize that this blog is just another repository for whatever i cannot seem to throw away. it holds things which i should've gotten rid off a long time ago.there's something aboput throwing things away that gets to me. maybe it's all about being forgotten. i'm not entirely sure how all these things fit into the big picture. but i'm trying not to care for the moment.
i'm just really killing time until my download finishes. then i can spend another hour or so treating myself to another escape. i'm hoping in fall asleep early so as i won't be plagued by boredom later, when there is no show left to watch.
i need to do something.
i have to get out.
i have to get out of here.
i wonder how many typographical errors i've made.