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My revelation today... and why I refuse to be mean to anyone... anymore... or atleast im trying not to.
Every person use to be a kid. Everyone of those kids use to wish they were a superhero, or a princess, or a prince, or a herioin. All of us... are connected, and much difference as we have come to grow into. We are all the same kids in our hearts... part of us still wants to save the world... or rule a small part of it.
It made me sad to realise I couldn't go to both Memorials today... and even more sad when i had to not go to steves. I heard it was very sweet, and it was exactly the type of memorial i would want for myself.
There were pictures of him as a superhero when he was a kid, or wearing his superman Pajamas.
I realise that somewhere... everyone has some good in them, and that everyone deserves a nice smile, because maybe they will smile back. Maybe thats what we all need to do. I spent to many years being mad at all the kids that beat me up... and at the school who didnt try and stop the teasing. Or the teacher who didnt have time to help me in class, or my father who was to busy with work to hang out. Or my mother who was to busy with church to say hi... and my sisters who had friends.
Im sorry to everyone that I've hurt over the past years... as hard as it seems for me to admit it... sometimes it was very intentional, and I dont know why. I guess it was just my little revenge at all the pain I was feeling.
This may not seem like alot to you, but Steve never made fun of my name. Which means he was nicer to me then most kids, even some of my best friends. Who i think will never understand how much it hurts to hear alot of nick names, which sounds stupid, but alot of them have derogitory backgrounds for me, and it stings to hear them.
Im done though. Im trying to be at peace with everything.
<3
Every person use to be a kid. Everyone of those kids use to wish they were a superhero, or a princess, or a prince, or a herioin. All of us... are connected, and much difference as we have come to grow into. We are all the same kids in our hearts... part of us still wants to save the world... or rule a small part of it.
It made me sad to realise I couldn't go to both Memorials today... and even more sad when i had to not go to steves. I heard it was very sweet, and it was exactly the type of memorial i would want for myself.
There were pictures of him as a superhero when he was a kid, or wearing his superman Pajamas.
I realise that somewhere... everyone has some good in them, and that everyone deserves a nice smile, because maybe they will smile back. Maybe thats what we all need to do. I spent to many years being mad at all the kids that beat me up... and at the school who didnt try and stop the teasing. Or the teacher who didnt have time to help me in class, or my father who was to busy with work to hang out. Or my mother who was to busy with church to say hi... and my sisters who had friends.
Im sorry to everyone that I've hurt over the past years... as hard as it seems for me to admit it... sometimes it was very intentional, and I dont know why. I guess it was just my little revenge at all the pain I was feeling.
This may not seem like alot to you, but Steve never made fun of my name. Which means he was nicer to me then most kids, even some of my best friends. Who i think will never understand how much it hurts to hear alot of nick names, which sounds stupid, but alot of them have derogitory backgrounds for me, and it stings to hear them.
Im done though. Im trying to be at peace with everything.
<3