A long strange road..
So, it's been a while since I've used this, and frankly, I wasn't even sure I'd remember passwords and such. Just felt the need to write a bit as of late. Thought I'd do it here...
Things have been, well, busy... manic.. tiring.. I've felt really out of touch with a lot of things lately. And since my birthday last week, I've felt things have been in need of a change.
For the past year and a half, I've been working 2 very steady part time jobs. I've had zero social life, and I'm living my life seemingly dad to day. I can't even say 'week to week' or 'paycheck to paycheck' because those time periods are too long. Day to day... No one should do this to themselves. It's exhausting. I'm constantly leaving post-its and notes around the house with little week-long 'maps' on them so I know when and where I'm working next. Constant little reminders for myself so I can figure out when I should be going to bed so that I may get a decent amount of sleep... or when I have spare time to get my laundry in. My two major focuses of the day seem to be - "what are we going to have for dinner" and "if I go to bed at **time, I can get **hrs of sleep". I can see someone wanting or having this lifestyle while in school, or fresh out of... maybe.. but not where I am now.
My birthday was a big deal to me this year-- only, the day after.
I'm in my 30s.. and established.
I can't say that I've 'just turned 30'... that was three years ago.
I'm not necessarily in my 'mid30s' sorta... but I'm definitely into my 30s.
This is not where I pictured myself being/doing/going through at 33....
So I'm not where I thought I'd be, fine... I'm cool with that. I'm not unhappy -- maybe just a little tired. lol.
Personally, in the past 10 years of my life, I'm in what seems to be the happiest of places. I'm in a fantastic relationship, with someone who really truly loves me. And I'm happy.
I'm just ready for a little me time. Since beginning this double-job life, I've put aside any of my creative habits. Put aside, but very much missed it all. I just don't have time. I work and then sleep.. that's about it.
By the end of the week, I'm so exhausted - being stretched thin between both places. I feel I'm not performing at capacity at either job as well, and it's seems almost detrimental to achieving career advancement at this point.
So I'm changing things. I'm making my move.
And it couldn't have been decided at a better time.
We've been accepted for a new apartment, which will save us $400/month than what we're currently dishing out. And we get to move in mid-June. With the money we'll be saving, it (sadly -- for the trouble I go through) almost covers one of my paychecks (not quite, but we'll manage). Instead of going through the hassle of trying to book off time to move --- I'm just going to quit. /huge releasing sigh
There's way too much happy involved with this decision for me to just carry on as it currently is.
I'll be able to concentrate on one path... hone in on those skills and totally kill it. :)
I'll be able to work on my advancement and actually work on having a 'career', as I'm old enough now--- I should probably have one.
I'll be able to have some time for myself --- to sew!! Lord help me, I need a creative output. I've been recently introduced to Pinterest, and I've been getting inspiration bubbles again. I can't remember having them in the LONGEST time. I also have a few people knocking on my door to create things for them - things which require effort and time, I'd like to give both.
I'll be able to have time for friends. I need this. I'm certain I've been driving a certain fella bonkers lately. I miss people, and hope to be able to reach out - or reconnect with lost friendships or even create new ones.. There have been a couple of truly amazing people recently make a reconnection within the past month, and my heart seems to have jumpstarted in the most positive way.
Me-Time.
I'm going to move, and start fresh. (and strategically *just* before Pride /slight evil giggle)
New home, singular career focus, creative-flow reestablished...
/solidifies the happy
Things have been, well, busy... manic.. tiring.. I've felt really out of touch with a lot of things lately. And since my birthday last week, I've felt things have been in need of a change.
For the past year and a half, I've been working 2 very steady part time jobs. I've had zero social life, and I'm living my life seemingly dad to day. I can't even say 'week to week' or 'paycheck to paycheck' because those time periods are too long. Day to day... No one should do this to themselves. It's exhausting. I'm constantly leaving post-its and notes around the house with little week-long 'maps' on them so I know when and where I'm working next. Constant little reminders for myself so I can figure out when I should be going to bed so that I may get a decent amount of sleep... or when I have spare time to get my laundry in. My two major focuses of the day seem to be - "what are we going to have for dinner" and "if I go to bed at **time, I can get **hrs of sleep". I can see someone wanting or having this lifestyle while in school, or fresh out of... maybe.. but not where I am now.
My birthday was a big deal to me this year-- only, the day after.
I'm in my 30s.. and established.
I can't say that I've 'just turned 30'... that was three years ago.
I'm not necessarily in my 'mid30s' sorta... but I'm definitely into my 30s.
This is not where I pictured myself being/doing/going through at 33....
So I'm not where I thought I'd be, fine... I'm cool with that. I'm not unhappy -- maybe just a little tired. lol.
Personally, in the past 10 years of my life, I'm in what seems to be the happiest of places. I'm in a fantastic relationship, with someone who really truly loves me. And I'm happy.
I'm just ready for a little me time. Since beginning this double-job life, I've put aside any of my creative habits. Put aside, but very much missed it all. I just don't have time. I work and then sleep.. that's about it.
By the end of the week, I'm so exhausted - being stretched thin between both places. I feel I'm not performing at capacity at either job as well, and it's seems almost detrimental to achieving career advancement at this point.
So I'm changing things. I'm making my move.
And it couldn't have been decided at a better time.
We've been accepted for a new apartment, which will save us $400/month than what we're currently dishing out. And we get to move in mid-June. With the money we'll be saving, it (sadly -- for the trouble I go through) almost covers one of my paychecks (not quite, but we'll manage). Instead of going through the hassle of trying to book off time to move --- I'm just going to quit. /huge releasing sigh
There's way too much happy involved with this decision for me to just carry on as it currently is.
I'll be able to concentrate on one path... hone in on those skills and totally kill it. :)
I'll be able to work on my advancement and actually work on having a 'career', as I'm old enough now--- I should probably have one.
I'll be able to have some time for myself --- to sew!! Lord help me, I need a creative output. I've been recently introduced to Pinterest, and I've been getting inspiration bubbles again. I can't remember having them in the LONGEST time. I also have a few people knocking on my door to create things for them - things which require effort and time, I'd like to give both.
I'll be able to have time for friends. I need this. I'm certain I've been driving a certain fella bonkers lately. I miss people, and hope to be able to reach out - or reconnect with lost friendships or even create new ones.. There have been a couple of truly amazing people recently make a reconnection within the past month, and my heart seems to have jumpstarted in the most positive way.
Me-Time.
I'm going to move, and start fresh. (and strategically *just* before Pride /slight evil giggle)
New home, singular career focus, creative-flow reestablished...
/solidifies the happy