truth from falsity

[magnetic_62nd]

look down to shaking legs
and up to the same stars
it's fitting
i believe

the way they are situated
and what they mean

they are just where they should be
and this body is surely not

not when i'm hoping for this
some chance
some collision
of eyes in a shared viewing
of maybe the same stars we dreamed on

foolish even if a maybe
so lips still
i feel you
feel you reach out
with a cold hand

and it's not like a dream
not like you hope it will feel
it's too real
too conflicted

too true

but even unwanting eyes
must see
even a restless mind
craves sleep
and there is no part of me
that does not crave you so

so that i would lie to myself
until the world faded away
to see something more of you
in these cages
and the straight lines in between them

so that i would lie the chains that hold me
into nothingness
and if only the bonds that keep us apart
were not physical

if only

if only i could twist the words and thoughts
they are made of into a bed of cloud
and watch the sky with you
until the stars burned out

waiting for the lights to fade
until we knew how the story ended
until we were all that existed