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I don't know if you guys know this, but I hate writing. It takes me hours and hours to get up the courage/motivation to write even a few hundred words. Ask me to write a five page analysis of a book and I might end up in tears. Literally. I can talk to you for hours and hours about plenty of topics. But how can you ask me to write down my thoughts like that, to commit them to paper? And then you want me to read what I've written down and judge it? Of course it's garbage! English is a fun language, but it's much harder for me to play with it without the verbal tics I use. I'm losing my train of thought.
It's been so long since I just wrote and let my mind go where it wanted to. I remember I used to write reflections all the time and the rambling always took me to where I needed to look at. My life is kinda uncertain right now. I'm working on college applications (again) and that's kind of scary. I feel like my life is being pulled in two very different possibilities. I'm afraid that if I continue here I may become something that I would rather not.
tired
It's been so long since I just wrote and let my mind go where it wanted to. I remember I used to write reflections all the time and the rambling always took me to where I needed to look at. My life is kinda uncertain right now. I'm working on college applications (again) and that's kind of scary. I feel like my life is being pulled in two very different possibilities. I'm afraid that if I continue here I may become something that I would rather not.
tired