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Amanda. This is Drama. Do not Read.
So, I'm officially a terrible person, ridiculously unthoughtful, as well as a bad boyfriend. Flashback to about 2 weeks ago, midway through my "2 weeks of jampacked plans" event, when Jason told me that at the end of that, we wouldn't be able to hang out because he was going to the coast. I was bummed. Several days later, he tells me that I could go with him, I say I'd think about it. Day or so after that (about 1 week ago) I told him I would. He apparently got Havilah's confirmation that it was alright as well sometime during this time. Flash forward to today, when me and Havilah are sitting at the computer at her house, and Jason blips on and asks if it's ok if I can go during next Wednesday to Sunday (3rd to 7th), I ask Havilah. She says it's not so cool because that's our 6 Month anniversary. I bite my lip, and tell Jason that. Later on he tells me that that's a douche move. I bite my lip again, and tell Havilah that I want to go with Jason cause I haven't seen him in 2 weeks, all the while feeling terrible because either way one of them will be mad at me. Havilah is sad and guilty, but also pissed, but lets me, even though I now feel much worse, because I broke two fucking promises in one day. I'm considering throwing myself off of my roof and hoping for a coma. Or at least a broken limb or two. If anyone has any advice on how I could be a better person, please share. I'll be biting my nails.
So, I'm officially a terrible person, ridiculously unthoughtful, as well as a bad boyfriend. Flashback to about 2 weeks ago, midway through my "2 weeks of jampacked plans" event, when Jason told me that at the end of that, we wouldn't be able to hang out because he was going to the coast. I was bummed. Several days later, he tells me that I could go with him, I say I'd think about it. Day or so after that (about 1 week ago) I told him I would. He apparently got Havilah's confirmation that it was alright as well sometime during this time. Flash forward to today, when me and Havilah are sitting at the computer at her house, and Jason blips on and asks if it's ok if I can go during next Wednesday to Sunday (3rd to 7th), I ask Havilah. She says it's not so cool because that's our 6 Month anniversary. I bite my lip, and tell Jason that. Later on he tells me that that's a douche move. I bite my lip again, and tell Havilah that I want to go with Jason cause I haven't seen him in 2 weeks, all the while feeling terrible because either way one of them will be mad at me. Havilah is sad and guilty, but also pissed, but lets me, even though I now feel much worse, because I broke two fucking promises in one day. I'm considering throwing myself off of my roof and hoping for a coma. Or at least a broken limb or two. If anyone has any advice on how I could be a better person, please share. I'll be biting my nails.