its been so long ..
hi. how is everyone?
i know i haven't updated in a while.. its because i like.. can't decide what i want to put in here. oh yeah, that and i have a hard time organizing my thoughts lately. i've got it all under wraps now though. i just talked to lindsey on the net.. i get sad when i talk to her. i have no idea why. sometimes i think its just me being a dumbass .. and sometimes i think i really fucked myself up. but.. its not as hard now as it used to be.. in other sorta halfway related news, i haven't talked to emily in a long time. her friend merideth lead me to believe she didn't want me calling .. wanted me to give myself the distance to make it easier on myself.. which is .. nice.. or something. in any event, i'm still all broken apart inside. maybe its just clinical depression. i've been a lot happier though.. days go by.. weed gets smoked, money is made - ideas are brought into the light and then fade like smoke back up into the sky. sometimes i remember what i dream up in my 1.5hour car ride to and from work.. ways to improve myself - things to be passionate about. its really nice sometimes.. when you get that feeling.. its been awhile since i've felt inspired.. last night i wrote a nice song.. its not online yet, but feel free to check http://magnatop.nana-ji.net for updates.
jikan is the one that gave me the webspace at nana-ji.net.. .shes one of my irc friends from amsterdam.. mmmm.. anyway, i was just bringing her up because i'm very happy we're friends.. cause she's sweet and does lots and lots of drugs :) which is funny to me.. i mean, of course she does drugs right?
lets see what else.. this guy andy that i used to live with.. one of my favorite and best friends of all time lives in g.r. again.. and i got his cell phone # from my friend jammi.. hooray! .. i still haven't gotten a chance to get over to his place and say hi.. but i've talked to him on the phone a few times.. i love that guy.. seriously.. great guy.
chelle is dating a guy from irc .. er.. "dating" .. yall dont' know who chelle is .. but i think its weird.. chelle, if you're reading this.. .. i think its WEIRD.. but then again.. what do i know? :) .. maybe i'm just jealous cause no one seems to like me now.
my sisters computer is still being a fucker. its the second motherboard i've had.. i'm going to have to update the bios, but i have to take a floppy drive out of another computer and then fuckin'.. blahblahblah .. lots of work.. its pissing me off..
the other day candy suggested we find a place together.. candy is my friend... sounds like a good idea.. i'm not sure though.. i've always said living with a girl would be awesome.. i mean, a roommate girl, nto a girlfriend girl.. although that would probably be nice too if it was the right girl.. anyhow.. that was good news.. cause now i have a potential roommate.. one that i think i can probably live with even.. but will we get drunk and be dumb and ruin it? or will there even be sexual tension? .. who knows.. sounds like fun in any event.. its not like i have a gf that i'm pissing off or anything..
are the olson twins 18 yet?
one things for sure, i'm getting sick of sleeping a lone.. i need some good good lovin'. one of the many times during the day i think of emily.. sitting here.. alone.. a lil lonely.. *WAM* then i gotta be like.. no no .. its for the better.. blah blah blah.. ..
so.. i think thats about it. i'm gonna start doing more fun stuff from now on. including spending more time learning php and such.
much love. b.
i know i haven't updated in a while.. its because i like.. can't decide what i want to put in here. oh yeah, that and i have a hard time organizing my thoughts lately. i've got it all under wraps now though. i just talked to lindsey on the net.. i get sad when i talk to her. i have no idea why. sometimes i think its just me being a dumbass .. and sometimes i think i really fucked myself up. but.. its not as hard now as it used to be.. in other sorta halfway related news, i haven't talked to emily in a long time. her friend merideth lead me to believe she didn't want me calling .. wanted me to give myself the distance to make it easier on myself.. which is .. nice.. or something. in any event, i'm still all broken apart inside. maybe its just clinical depression. i've been a lot happier though.. days go by.. weed gets smoked, money is made - ideas are brought into the light and then fade like smoke back up into the sky. sometimes i remember what i dream up in my 1.5hour car ride to and from work.. ways to improve myself - things to be passionate about. its really nice sometimes.. when you get that feeling.. its been awhile since i've felt inspired.. last night i wrote a nice song.. its not online yet, but feel free to check http://magnatop.nana-ji.net for updates.
jikan is the one that gave me the webspace at nana-ji.net.. .shes one of my irc friends from amsterdam.. mmmm.. anyway, i was just bringing her up because i'm very happy we're friends.. cause she's sweet and does lots and lots of drugs :) which is funny to me.. i mean, of course she does drugs right?
lets see what else.. this guy andy that i used to live with.. one of my favorite and best friends of all time lives in g.r. again.. and i got his cell phone # from my friend jammi.. hooray! .. i still haven't gotten a chance to get over to his place and say hi.. but i've talked to him on the phone a few times.. i love that guy.. seriously.. great guy.
chelle is dating a guy from irc .. er.. "dating" .. yall dont' know who chelle is .. but i think its weird.. chelle, if you're reading this.. .. i think its WEIRD.. but then again.. what do i know? :) .. maybe i'm just jealous cause no one seems to like me now.
my sisters computer is still being a fucker. its the second motherboard i've had.. i'm going to have to update the bios, but i have to take a floppy drive out of another computer and then fuckin'.. blahblahblah .. lots of work.. its pissing me off..
the other day candy suggested we find a place together.. candy is my friend... sounds like a good idea.. i'm not sure though.. i've always said living with a girl would be awesome.. i mean, a roommate girl, nto a girlfriend girl.. although that would probably be nice too if it was the right girl.. anyhow.. that was good news.. cause now i have a potential roommate.. one that i think i can probably live with even.. but will we get drunk and be dumb and ruin it? or will there even be sexual tension? .. who knows.. sounds like fun in any event.. its not like i have a gf that i'm pissing off or anything..
are the olson twins 18 yet?
one things for sure, i'm getting sick of sleeping a lone.. i need some good good lovin'. one of the many times during the day i think of emily.. sitting here.. alone.. a lil lonely.. *WAM* then i gotta be like.. no no .. its for the better.. blah blah blah.. ..
so.. i think thats about it. i'm gonna start doing more fun stuff from now on. including spending more time learning php and such.
much love. b.