Confused

[magnanimous]

I am not sure what happened. People say when you find something perfect, it doesn't last. Fuck that. I can't let myself believe it. I was the happiest I've ever been when we were together. I don't remember when it started going wrong exactly. I only remember what I want back. I want the guy who couldn't stop kissing me. I want the guy who pulled my towards him if I was a foot away from him. I want the guy who danced with me in the middle of the family room floor infront of all his friends. I want the guy who played thumb wars with me. I want the guy who left me cigs and note on my doorstep before he went to work. I want the guy who made me dinner at 11 o'clock at night. I want the guy who told me he had never felt like this before. I want the guy who loved me, and I loved him. I want him back.

I don't understand the bitterness and the smart comments. I want to be wanted. I need to be needed. I want someone to say I brighten up the room when I walk in. I want to feel appreciated and loved. I don't want to feel bad for dropping in and seeing my boyfriend at home or at work, when I'm unexpected.

Can we get it back?