flashes of lightning
they crash throughout my mind. these loves and their complementary thunder, shaking my mind and spirit, day-after-day. within the short glimpses between these long dark voids i see silhouettes cast on the inside of my skull. chemical bonds all broken and frayed, forming two aqueous precipitates, plus-minus-plus-minus-plus, all floating about in true freedom. i am stabbed with a broken beaker by a dear friend and to the floor falls my bleeding pieced heart, among cherried shards of glass. along came a spider and cocooned together my chest, lying on the floor, however deformed. i sat under her spell, comforted by our closest, despite her eventual plan to gnaw off my head and fill my insides with her offspring. yet i could not sleep soundly a single night. ever looming was a ghost, running back and forth through me. at times i was very much possessed by it and laid there crying to myself: "how could i rid myself of this ethereal plague?" night-to-night it all seems a blurrrrr!! my body scarred with cigarette burns from one night, walking on glass the next, all with spider bites across my neck, and ever haunted by this ghost...