Wow pain...
Damn, I didn't expect this today. It hasn't slipped my notice that her birthday is one week from today. And then the lj writers block today, and some crap a friend said...
I was telling someone the whole story yesterday, which was as usual, but the fact that her b-day's in a week is making today a bit rougher. With everything that's happened in the last couple of months, her b-day is gonna hit hard this year. I'm scared.
I can't tell you how much I wish one day she'd just get ahold of me. Say "Hi, I'm still alive." And that goes for the others too. Lauren, Jess, and the latest. Sometimes just a word can fix so much. Just a "Hi", to know that things aren't hopeless. After 7 years, it ought to be rather hopeless. After 6 years, it ought to be hopeless. After 5 months, there's still some hope but its waning fast.
I can't give up, I've not forgotten you yet.
I was telling someone the whole story yesterday, which was as usual, but the fact that her b-day's in a week is making today a bit rougher. With everything that's happened in the last couple of months, her b-day is gonna hit hard this year. I'm scared.
I can't tell you how much I wish one day she'd just get ahold of me. Say "Hi, I'm still alive." And that goes for the others too. Lauren, Jess, and the latest. Sometimes just a word can fix so much. Just a "Hi", to know that things aren't hopeless. After 7 years, it ought to be rather hopeless. After 6 years, it ought to be hopeless. After 5 months, there's still some hope but its waning fast.
I can't give up, I've not forgotten you yet.