Ideas about ideas...
It has been quite a while since the last serious post, so...philosophy time...
Some people believe that their actions should come from what they sense, remember, and desire.
Others believe that their actions should come from a source of guidance, sometimes called an Angel, a conscience, a God, a Creator, or a number of other things.
Early this year I began to find a way to believe both. Over the past several months, I accepted what I sensed from my environment and let it inspire me. This did not work. My decisions were slow because there were always two thoughts in my mind, and I didn't know which was the best choice.
I was looking for my source of guidance in the wrong place. Therefore, I tried to remember what I had written in previous LJ posts, and I found that my source of guidance was something that wasn't sensed, but FELT.
A week ago, my mom had called and said something she always said: "I always had my God." I didn't think about it much, but then I realized that she didn't say, "I always had God." She said "my God." Always, in fact. I began to wonder if (as some cultures believe) perhaps there isn't just one source of guidance. Perhaps every single decision-making person has THEIR OWN source, and when our lives end, we leave this realm and become sources of guidance for the people who are just born. Perhaps this Companion Angel is guiding me, and when I die, it will be born as a person, and my soul will become a Companion Angel as it lives here. Then when he/she dies, I will once again return as a person, without ever remembering that I existed here at all.
But what about the souls of animals? What is their source of guidance? Perhaps THEY are the ones who must be guided by the environment, and perhaps the souls of animals become the forces that hold the matter of the universe together.
Strange? Yes. Ridiculous? Possibly. But it calms me to know that I am always being guided by something pure, and there is no need to wonder if I will make a good choice.
As I thought of all these bizarre concepts, I realized I had taken a tremendous leap from the quaint beliefs I had considered before. I had written similar ideas, but not like this. How could I believe any of this? How can I explain this to anyone?
I am not hoping to convince anyone that these thoughts are correct; I merely took a sample of my ideas to demonstrate where I am.
If this sounds crazy, let me know.
Thanks for indulging.
Some people believe that their actions should come from what they sense, remember, and desire.
Others believe that their actions should come from a source of guidance, sometimes called an Angel, a conscience, a God, a Creator, or a number of other things.
Early this year I began to find a way to believe both. Over the past several months, I accepted what I sensed from my environment and let it inspire me. This did not work. My decisions were slow because there were always two thoughts in my mind, and I didn't know which was the best choice.
I was looking for my source of guidance in the wrong place. Therefore, I tried to remember what I had written in previous LJ posts, and I found that my source of guidance was something that wasn't sensed, but FELT.
A week ago, my mom had called and said something she always said: "I always had my God." I didn't think about it much, but then I realized that she didn't say, "I always had God." She said "my God." Always, in fact. I began to wonder if (as some cultures believe) perhaps there isn't just one source of guidance. Perhaps every single decision-making person has THEIR OWN source, and when our lives end, we leave this realm and become sources of guidance for the people who are just born. Perhaps this Companion Angel is guiding me, and when I die, it will be born as a person, and my soul will become a Companion Angel as it lives here. Then when he/she dies, I will once again return as a person, without ever remembering that I existed here at all.
But what about the souls of animals? What is their source of guidance? Perhaps THEY are the ones who must be guided by the environment, and perhaps the souls of animals become the forces that hold the matter of the universe together.
Strange? Yes. Ridiculous? Possibly. But it calms me to know that I am always being guided by something pure, and there is no need to wonder if I will make a good choice.
As I thought of all these bizarre concepts, I realized I had taken a tremendous leap from the quaint beliefs I had considered before. I had written similar ideas, but not like this. How could I believe any of this? How can I explain this to anyone?
I am not hoping to convince anyone that these thoughts are correct; I merely took a sample of my ideas to demonstrate where I am.
If this sounds crazy, let me know.
Thanks for indulging.