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so my trip to st john's has been postponed because American Airlines is totally useless. And according to my parents, I totally over reacted and they are "extremely disappointed in their daughter of 23 years old." So i'm frustrated with the possibility of not getting to see my friends now and I have my parents yelling at me this morning because they think I didn't handle the situation appropriately and my father even said that he can "see why you got fired." So I feel like shit.
On top of that , I did something last night I am not proud of. I went to check kyle's email to see if I could figure out what he would be getting for a flight credit so I could figure out what flight to tell him to get and I stupidly read an email he sent to his ex. And that just caused a whole new set of issues. So between feeling like shit about everything and now i have an insane amount of guilt and I have to hang out with the people who do not understand one thing about me and pretend like everything is okay. I would really just rather jump off the breakwater into the ocean and have it over with.
Worst. Trip. Ever. I am not coming back here for a very long time. A very very long number of years. I fucking hate it here and I forgot how much I really dislike my parents.
Kyle is coming tomorrow. I have to decide if we're still going to go to st john's or not. I guess we will. I don't know anymore.... fuck.
On top of that , I did something last night I am not proud of. I went to check kyle's email to see if I could figure out what he would be getting for a flight credit so I could figure out what flight to tell him to get and I stupidly read an email he sent to his ex. And that just caused a whole new set of issues. So between feeling like shit about everything and now i have an insane amount of guilt and I have to hang out with the people who do not understand one thing about me and pretend like everything is okay. I would really just rather jump off the breakwater into the ocean and have it over with.
Worst. Trip. Ever. I am not coming back here for a very long time. A very very long number of years. I fucking hate it here and I forgot how much I really dislike my parents.
Kyle is coming tomorrow. I have to decide if we're still going to go to st john's or not. I guess we will. I don't know anymore.... fuck.