Oh, god. I'm not sure I could ever see my parents again if that had been my situation. As it is, after being basically homeless for a while and some incidents with my mother's boyfriend, it's hard to pretend it didn't happen. Not that I mean to compare our situations, of course. I'm just happy that you got out of there. I've been on my own since I was about 17, best thing that could have happened to me, really, despite some problems I had which eventually landed me in the hospital. Anyway! I live in my head too, and there's really no place I'd rather be. Safer, you know. Even so, meeting people in this way has really...well, filled a void, I suppose. I don't do well in person either, and there's nothing wrong with that, because honestly I've never felt more accepted than by people I've met online.
Rambly, rambly :) I get rambly when I drink. Sweeeet about your tattoos; mine aren't nearly so meaningful. I've got a star and crescent moon on the back of my neck and this ivy-looking thing around my ankle. I'd like a circular-type tattoo on the inside of my wrist but I can't figure out what to get :\ Yours sound beatiful, though <3
Growing up like that it’s normal for you. You think that’s what happens in all families. And when you’re old enough to know it’s not normal, it doesn’t matter. There’s already a hole where other people have feelings. I always think - and that’s whats making me sad and depressed in the end - that I should feel like I’m missing something. But it’s hard to miss something you’ve never experienced. Like being born blind, maybe. Trust? Don’t think I really trust anybody with anything. Love? I’ve never been in love. In physical sense, I’m a virgin, never even been kissed.
Your tattoos sound really nice, too. Most popular opinion when people see mine: “Unusual for a woman”. Well, I’ve never been the type for roses, hearts or cartoon characters. When I was 19, I had to spend three weeks in bed with a really bad cough and during that time I fell in love with a tv series from the 70ties, Kung Fu starred by David Carradine, watching it every day. I got curious about the cultural background, started to get interested in ancient China. This inspired years later my tattoos. Some of them are from magazines, most are specially drawn for me. By now I’m friends with the woman who makes them. And as a special bonus, her daugther (who is a few years older than me), working in the shop next door, does write fanfic and slash. Even if we don’t have many fandoms in common (but I could get her interested in House LOL) we always find something to talk about. Those two are the only friends I meet ‘in real’.
Rambly, rambly :) I get rambly when I drink. Sweeeet about your tattoos; mine aren't nearly so meaningful. I've got a star and crescent moon on the back of my neck and this ivy-looking thing around my ankle. I'd like a circular-type tattoo on the inside of my wrist but I can't figure out what to get :\ Yours sound beatiful, though <3
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Growing up like that it’s normal for you. You think that’s what happens in all families. And when you’re old enough to know it’s not normal, it doesn’t matter. There’s already a hole where other people have feelings. I always think - and that’s whats making me sad and depressed in the end - that I should feel like I’m missing something. But it’s hard to miss something you’ve never experienced. Like being born blind, maybe. Trust? Don’t think I really trust anybody with anything. Love? I’ve never been in love. In physical sense, I’m a virgin, never even been kissed.
Your tattoos sound really nice, too. Most popular opinion when people see mine: “Unusual for a woman”. Well, I’ve never been the type for roses, hearts or cartoon characters. When I was 19, I had to spend three weeks in bed with a really bad cough and during that time I fell in love with a tv series from the 70ties, Kung Fu starred by David Carradine, watching it every day. I got curious about the cultural background, started to get interested in ancient China. This inspired years later my tattoos. Some of them are from magazines, most are specially drawn for me. By now I’m friends with the woman who makes them. And as a special bonus, her daugther (who is a few years older than me), working in the shop next door, does write fanfic and slash. Even if we don’t have many fandoms in common (but I could get her interested in House LOL) we always find something to talk about. Those two are the only friends I meet ‘in real’.
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