Why
Why.
Why am I such a sucker?
Why do I stay in my PJs for a whole weekend?
Why don't I study more?
Why is it the fridge is full of food but I want something I don't have?
Why is my roommate still on the phone?
Why am I hosting a Halloween group?
Why do I compulsively plan ahead?
Why do my priorities go to hell the moment he calls and requests something?
Why don't I ever say no?
Why can't I go a day without calling?
Why does it depend on whether or not he's going for me to go?
Why do I organize and plan and still not get everything done?
Why do I make decisions that don't benefit me?
It's a great, busy year don't get me wrong. I just hosted the biggest pessimist who is beating me in flying colors and to top it all off, Matt's defending his stupidity and "sense of humor". What. The. Hell. Really? That's what gets me the most. I will make my personal judgment of people based off of how they treat me, and Matt has no need nor right to say otherwise.
Enough arguing, enough questioning, tomorrow is my longest day and all I'm doing is sitting here and screwing around on my computer.
I'm angry.
I'm frustrated.
I want more change that I can't get my hands on.
Why am I such a sucker?
Why do I stay in my PJs for a whole weekend?
Why don't I study more?
Why is it the fridge is full of food but I want something I don't have?
Why is my roommate still on the phone?
Why am I hosting a Halloween group?
Why do I compulsively plan ahead?
Why do my priorities go to hell the moment he calls and requests something?
Why don't I ever say no?
Why can't I go a day without calling?
Why does it depend on whether or not he's going for me to go?
Why do I organize and plan and still not get everything done?
Why do I make decisions that don't benefit me?
It's a great, busy year don't get me wrong. I just hosted the biggest pessimist who is beating me in flying colors and to top it all off, Matt's defending his stupidity and "sense of humor". What. The. Hell. Really? That's what gets me the most. I will make my personal judgment of people based off of how they treat me, and Matt has no need nor right to say otherwise.
Enough arguing, enough questioning, tomorrow is my longest day and all I'm doing is sitting here and screwing around on my computer.
I'm angry.
I'm frustrated.
I want more change that I can't get my hands on.