uninspired
This is the end of week 7 and I'm tired of school. I'm not supposed to be fully tired of it until about a month from now, but right now, to be honest, I want school to be over and done with, I want to leave everything and everyone from this year behind and I don't want to think about much of anything.
My birthday was somewhat of a disappointment, and since I didn't expect anything it was okay until I came to realize that I was disappointed because I hadn't fully reached out of the Matt hole and moved on. We're still marginally together and yet we're completely sick of one another. Though, at least this year my mom didn't argue with any waitress and make us leave from the restaurant really fast. My mom was right yes, but she's not my type to mess with. I'm in the mood I was in the last time I was drunk (mid Winter quarter) and really, this is a horribly shitty mood. Not to mention, I'm plopped on Matt's bed while he's out and about enjoying life after skipping class today and being a boring butt head. Again, we spend too much time together.
At this point though, to change my ways would be to mess up equilibrium for the rest of the year, so next year will be the time to try something new. I'm sure things will be different and I'll actually have a chance to...be someone unlike this year, but for now, wtf to be completely honest. I've thrown away my freshman year already and although I regale it to Will Pilon like I've had a marvelous time, all the tales are true but my reactions and feelings later aren't true.
My books for Law and Society never showed up. Crap. I have really horrible allergies. More crap. I'm frustrated but there's no one to tell about it because I already know Matt's reactions and he's driving me up the wall.
-Erin
My birthday was somewhat of a disappointment, and since I didn't expect anything it was okay until I came to realize that I was disappointed because I hadn't fully reached out of the Matt hole and moved on. We're still marginally together and yet we're completely sick of one another. Though, at least this year my mom didn't argue with any waitress and make us leave from the restaurant really fast. My mom was right yes, but she's not my type to mess with. I'm in the mood I was in the last time I was drunk (mid Winter quarter) and really, this is a horribly shitty mood. Not to mention, I'm plopped on Matt's bed while he's out and about enjoying life after skipping class today and being a boring butt head. Again, we spend too much time together.
At this point though, to change my ways would be to mess up equilibrium for the rest of the year, so next year will be the time to try something new. I'm sure things will be different and I'll actually have a chance to...be someone unlike this year, but for now, wtf to be completely honest. I've thrown away my freshman year already and although I regale it to Will Pilon like I've had a marvelous time, all the tales are true but my reactions and feelings later aren't true.
My books for Law and Society never showed up. Crap. I have really horrible allergies. More crap. I'm frustrated but there's no one to tell about it because I already know Matt's reactions and he's driving me up the wall.
-Erin