Im hoping the cheating will be made easier by the fact my gp suggested i go back to him, we'll see, appointments the 21st
I think he's keen on the proac because the psych put me on it(well more agreed with my uni gp i should continue)and i think the ed people were keen for me to be on it...i dont think he knows quite how to handle all my stuff so anyone else going thats a good plan makes him feel much better(like he can help me)
It was my counsellor who ended up ringing hme treatment last yr for me, we'll see,
I like the sound of the safari park but i can quite understand how hectic it must of been for you, so i do get the awol bit and with the new meds.....
Retail i dont enjoy...but at the same time i do enjoy being around people, i should be waitressing in august and while at uni....and i loved doing that(k i did 2 4h shifts but ssh)bviosuly on my not so good days i dont enjoy it...and im am utterly fed up with customers telling me i look exhuasted and tbh there arent that many bad ones...just generally stupid, a lot of the time we are left going, they cant seriously have.....whatever it may be
Edward monkton is amazing, thanks for the link, i hadnt seen half the ones he does, so am smiling from that,and even better...if you look inside the pig of happiness its for me(and the billions of sarahs buts ssh)
If you want to talk about whats going on do feel free to email?i do even at my busiest tend to check daily(how sad does that make me)i just cant always promise a coherent reply the same day...i will get one to you tho :)
Bed...sleep...over rated and yus, i do love my bed...might need new matress but ssh, and i love sleep too, ive just lost that ability...i know why but if it was that simple to fix i'd be a millionaire lol
Take care, and i hope things to get easier...just shout if i can help x
Well I'm glad you've got the appointment and that it's relatively soon. I'll be thinking of you then.
If you say the prozac didn't work for you then he should really listen to that, regardless of the fact that the psych put you on it (and any decent psych should consider changing meds if you try one for a decent amount of time and it doesn't help). Sorry if that sounds a bit harsh but it really annoys me when people won't consider alternative meds (not just for psych stuff but painkillers etc too - it took me ages to convince my old GP that anti-inflammatories like Ibuprofen make me sick). Maybe seeing your counsellor will help with that side of things, especially if he contacts the home treatment people again for you.
The safari park was amazing, but you're right that there were also a lot of people and that wasn't at all easy (I think the rain helped that side of things though). At least the part you drive around only involves other people if you're the one driving, if that makes sense. I wasn't driving so I didn't have to think about it.
That's really cool about the Pig of Happiness thing :) I think every time I go into a shop that stocks Edward Monkton stuff I see something new, although that may be because I don't go shopping very often!
Thanks for the offer of talking about stuff hon. I might post some stuff in my journal some time, but I'm finding it hard to concentrate on things at the moment so I'm not that good at explaining things very well.
I'm glad that my new meds did at least sort my sleep for a bit, even if the effect has worn off a little now. Not getting sleep is not fun *hugs*
Im so dead im not sure this will make sense, i want to sleep so much more,
We'll see with my gp, im not sure il make it back to see him, next oppurtunity would be monday afternoon after appointment with tony, and im not sure i want to, tho could be helpful to say well yes we can cheat, no we cant,
I'm assuming i still have a psych. somewhere, i missed/cacelled my last appointments...they just make me stress, and im remember the bad times ive had with them more than the good. I guess they're more help if you talk to them lol.
I know what you mean about pain killers, not so much now, but the taste of tablets made me ill...which left me only being able to take certain ones(i got past that by drinking milk when taking them-masks the taste) I have the vague memory of my counsellor being able to prescribe stuff...so who knows, maybe he'll have a better plan.
The driving and people does make sense, its like until you drive you dont really know how to get to places as much because you dont think about it...dont need to know so the brain doesnt register it so much
I'm the same with edward monkton, theres a new bag/card all the time, theres a lovely little shop, cards galore in new street station that stocks it occasionally(and once very handily when i realised id forgotton someones birthday)
Hopefully things will get a bit easier for you soon, im always about x
I hope you do get to see your GP, if only to update him on whether you can have more sessions with Tony or not.
I can barely get any words out when I see my psych, so I know what you mean about them making you stress. At least the guy I have hasn't asked me too many upsetting/probing questions, because I really hate it when people do that and just drag up stuff you really don't want to be thinking about, especially when you don't have a regular therapy session to talk stuff through in.
Some tablets taste vile! I never used to be able to swallow tablets but thankfully I can now. The ones that taste really horrible I tend to hold in my teeth until I have the glass of water at my mouth so that they spend hardly any time on my tongue. I can't swallow them otherwise.
Thanks hon. Now I've got a care coordinator (she's an occupational therapist rather than a CPN) things are settling down slightly because I know there's someone I get to see/talk to once a week, even if it is just about various practical things I need to get done!
I hope work is going okay. Hang in there mate. -x-
I do believe flexi time is in exsitence again lol, im off to my gp on wed, 920..always good when i should be in work at 9, just to cover our backs, as tony pointed out no-one really cares but just in case i need a letter form gp saying give me more sessions
the appintment was good...im not sure how many times ive said this BUT im going to get my life back, im not quite sure how i got here, in this mess...but im pretty sure i dont want to be so here goes,
ive got an appointment in 2 weeks...option of sneaking in this week, i may take wed...which would be good, miss the start n end of my shift :P i'll just be like next wk im good lol
I was useless at it till i was about 14/15 yr 8 anyway, i did my elbow in and suddenly it didn't seem so hard lol, i hate paracetamol, its just ewww...which leaves anti-inflammatory ones which reading the leaflets i shouldn't take...but meh, i do when needed, which isnt often,
I like the care coordinator, sometimes i think just knowing someone is there helps, and i feel like such a fool when it comes to docs n such people going the biggest thing i struggle with is the practical stuff of living my life day to day, i think people forget that its hard, i miss that when i used to talk to someone from connexions(when i was doing as levels really i shut down a bit too much at alevel)
i feel a lot better now, knowing i'm not doing this alone, some friends have been there for me but not really....and tbh i'm feeling a bit let down by one, i basically have got him in to system(this is Kris)and went with him to the docs, just so you know i was there, he knows how hard i find it to talk, he knows that i was really worried about today(even if people don't know why, they know i've been stressed today its my facebook status from sat)have i heard anything no, saying that another friend knows i'm going to see tony today, heard nowt from her too...i'm not asking a lot i think but i know with the second she really struggles with finding the right words to say...
it was nice too to have my counsellor agree with me that i do need to move out. i need to get on with my life....and away from my parents. but ah.
I'm feeling good and positive right now...im scared of how long it will last...and how much the next bad bit is going to hit me, but untill then lets party :P
I think he's keen on the proac because the psych put me on it(well more agreed with my uni gp i should continue)and i think the ed people were keen for me to be on it...i dont think he knows quite how to handle all my stuff so anyone else going thats a good plan makes him feel much better(like he can help me)
It was my counsellor who ended up ringing hme treatment last yr for me, we'll see,
I like the sound of the safari park but i can quite understand how hectic it must of been for you, so i do get the awol bit and with the new meds.....
Retail i dont enjoy...but at the same time i do enjoy being around people, i should be waitressing in august and while at uni....and i loved doing that(k i did 2 4h shifts but ssh)bviosuly on my not so good days i dont enjoy it...and im am utterly fed up with customers telling me i look exhuasted and tbh there arent that many bad ones...just generally stupid, a lot of the time we are left going, they cant seriously have.....whatever it may be
Edward monkton is amazing, thanks for the link, i hadnt seen half the ones he does, so am smiling from that,and even better...if you look inside the pig of happiness its for me(and the billions of sarahs buts ssh)
If you want to talk about whats going on do feel free to email?i do even at my busiest tend to check daily(how sad does that make me)i just cant always promise a coherent reply the same day...i will get one to you tho :)
Bed...sleep...over rated and yus, i do love my bed...might need new matress but ssh, and i love sleep too, ive just lost that ability...i know why but if it was that simple to fix i'd be a millionaire lol
Take care, and i hope things to get easier...just shout if i can help x
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If you say the prozac didn't work for you then he should really listen to that, regardless of the fact that the psych put you on it (and any decent psych should consider changing meds if you try one for a decent amount of time and it doesn't help). Sorry if that sounds a bit harsh but it really annoys me when people won't consider alternative meds (not just for psych stuff but painkillers etc too - it took me ages to convince my old GP that anti-inflammatories like Ibuprofen make me sick). Maybe seeing your counsellor will help with that side of things, especially if he contacts the home treatment people again for you.
The safari park was amazing, but you're right that there were also a lot of people and that wasn't at all easy (I think the rain helped that side of things though). At least the part you drive around only involves other people if you're the one driving, if that makes sense. I wasn't driving so I didn't have to think about it.
That's really cool about the Pig of Happiness thing :) I think every time I go into a shop that stocks Edward Monkton stuff I see something new, although that may be because I don't go shopping very often!
Thanks for the offer of talking about stuff hon. I might post some stuff in my journal some time, but I'm finding it hard to concentrate on things at the moment so I'm not that good at explaining things very well.
I'm glad that my new meds did at least sort my sleep for a bit, even if the effect has worn off a little now. Not getting sleep is not fun *hugs*
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We'll see with my gp, im not sure il make it back to see him, next oppurtunity would be monday afternoon after appointment with tony, and im not sure i want to, tho could be helpful to say well yes we can cheat, no we cant,
I'm assuming i still have a psych. somewhere, i missed/cacelled my last appointments...they just make me stress, and im remember the bad times ive had with them more than the good. I guess they're more help if you talk to them lol.
I know what you mean about pain killers, not so much now, but the taste of tablets made me ill...which left me only being able to take certain ones(i got past that by drinking milk when taking them-masks the taste)
I have the vague memory of my counsellor being able to prescribe stuff...so who knows, maybe he'll have a better plan.
The driving and people does make sense, its like until you drive you dont really know how to get to places as much because you dont think about it...dont need to know so the brain doesnt register it so much
I'm the same with edward monkton, theres a new bag/card all the time, theres a lovely little shop, cards galore in new street station that stocks it occasionally(and once very handily when i realised id forgotton someones birthday)
Hopefully things will get a bit easier for you soon, im always about x
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I can barely get any words out when I see my psych, so I know what you mean about them making you stress. At least the guy I have hasn't asked me too many upsetting/probing questions, because I really hate it when people do that and just drag up stuff you really don't want to be thinking about, especially when you don't have a regular therapy session to talk stuff through in.
Some tablets taste vile! I never used to be able to swallow tablets but thankfully I can now. The ones that taste really horrible I tend to hold in my teeth until I have the glass of water at my mouth so that they spend hardly any time on my tongue. I can't swallow them otherwise.
Thanks hon. Now I've got a care coordinator (she's an occupational therapist rather than a CPN) things are settling down slightly because I know there's someone I get to see/talk to once a week, even if it is just about various practical things I need to get done!
I hope work is going okay. Hang in there mate. -x-
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the appintment was good...im not sure how many times ive said this BUT im going to get my life back, im not quite sure how i got here, in this mess...but im pretty sure i dont want to be so here goes,
ive got an appointment in 2 weeks...option of sneaking in this week, i may take wed...which would be good, miss the start n end of my shift :P i'll just be like next wk im good lol
I was useless at it till i was about 14/15 yr 8 anyway, i did my elbow in and suddenly it didn't seem so hard lol, i hate paracetamol, its just ewww...which leaves anti-inflammatory ones which reading the leaflets i shouldn't take...but meh, i do when needed, which isnt often,
I like the care coordinator, sometimes i think just knowing someone is there helps, and i feel like such a fool when it comes to docs n such people going the biggest thing i struggle with is the practical stuff of living my life day to day, i think people forget that its hard, i miss that when i used to talk to someone from connexions(when i was doing as levels really i shut down a bit too much at alevel)
i feel a lot better now, knowing i'm not doing this alone, some friends have been there for me but not really....and tbh i'm feeling a bit let down by one, i basically have got him in to system(this is Kris)and went with him to the docs, just so you know i was there, he knows how hard i find it to talk, he knows that i was really worried about today(even if people don't know why, they know i've been stressed today its my facebook status from sat)have i heard anything no, saying that another friend knows i'm going to see tony today, heard nowt from her too...i'm not asking a lot i think but i know with the second she really struggles with finding the right words to say...
it was nice too to have my counsellor agree with me that i do need to move out. i need to get on with my life....and away from my parents. but ah.
I'm feeling good and positive right now...im scared of how long it will last...and how much the next bad bit is going to hit me,
but untill then lets party :P
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