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i'm about to go to skool so i thought i should write to say a few things. gage broke up with me he said i was being a bitch lately and he didnt want to deal with it. i also told him negavitive and he said since i'm not he doesnt want me. then he messes around with another gurl while we still go out. it hurts i cried all last night. i couldnt even sleep.i dont want to go to skool but i have to. dallas is a good friend i talked to him for like two hours. dallas told me that gage almost cheated on me once and i told dallas, dallas there has been times i couldve cheated on gage but i didnt cuz i love him. my mind says i cant take him back for what he has done and i would never be able to forgive him for this but my heart longs for him still. is that bad. i know after this we can never be together again. he put me through so much pain. everybody feels sorry for me but there is nothing anyone can do cuz no one can take the pain away. i wonder where i went wrong. i cant help to think this is all my fault even though everybody says its not but it is cuz i am the one who put him through the pain and i was the one who made him hurt i was the one who could brake him down or make him a man. looks like i broke him down. i love him and dallas says i should hate him but i dont want to even though i should i just cant tell my heart to do that. i understand that me and gage have been through a shit load of stuff but we over came that so why not this why not now. i just dont get it. i am not even sure gage truely really loved me. i understand that the last two months has been hard on both of us and i tired not to take it out on him but it just happened and i am sorry about that. well i am alomost done eating and i got to get to skool so later