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i dont know but i am so fucking pissed at gage. i swear okay i am grounded for 26 more days and i dont get to talk to him very much actually i dont get to see him or talk to him okay. now when i am able to sneak a call to him he acts like its no big deal that i am calling him and it fucking pisses me off. i mean i love him but i am not sure i can take much more of this. i dont know if i am thinkin this way because i am about to start but whatever it is is pissin me off. i havent even thought about breaking up with gage but now i am. i dont know. i am just confused for the fact that i also like this other guy alot and this other gurl yes i am bi. but i really like this guy named david more than i like the gurl named ann. well i really like david but i love gage and i dont know who i want. i thought about me and ann and i found out that i didnt want her. so now i just got to figure out who i want right now either david or gage. this is going to take some time to think about and i dont know if i should tell gage about me picking between them or not and i have no idea what to do. and i have no one to turn to at all. i cant talk to gage about it cause i go out with gage and it wouldnt be fair on his part. maybe i should tell him that we need time apart for me to think about who and what i want. i mean me and gage have been going out for almost 3 months but it feels longer. but i dont know who i should pick and i dont know if i should call gage and tell him i need some time to think about stuff. i just dont know. why is life so fucking hard. why cant it be easier o just dont get it.i just need some help or i just need someone to talk to thats all. i think i will call bree and talk to her about this. hold on i am calling her now. never mind she is not home. so i have no one to talk to. FUCK. who an i turn to. i guess no one right thats just life and all. thats what u calls this good for nuttin hell hold they call life.