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i finally relize that it is a gift to be what i am. i should charish it not be pissed about it. as i slowly turn back into a girl i walk back home. as i walk i see everything for the first time.
you know what i dont know what to write i just feel like writing. its 11:20 and i have to get up early to go up north. thank the goddess that we have all next week off. i think i would go insane if i had to sit in skool one more day. i have 3 more weeks to bring my 4 f's to passing or i fall the semester. and if i do that i am shit.
my life is fucked up right now. i mean i am so close to failing to 10th grade like i did the 7th and i am so fucking confused about my love and friendship life. they are both doomed. but whatever. i am a loner anywas well kinda.
ever since taija left i really dont have anyone to talk to. bree ignores me when stef gets to skool. me and stef kinda went our on way since she started dateing kyle which is nothing wrong with that. mark is getting on my nerves. so all i have to talk to is you journal. but its no use talking to something that cant talk back. cause i still feel as empty as before. the only thing that well make me feel better is to write down my feelings.
i really miss brandon. i wish he would come back. you know one thing i hate about boys is that they will make-out with you one day and totally ignore you the next. they act like nothing ever happened. that pisses me off. they only reason why i am no longer dateing is cause i am tired or the same old bullshit. you go out with a guy make-out with him something goes wrong and ya'll break up. me what i am looking for is a long and serousy relationship. i want one that will last
but those kind of relationships are hard to come by. thats what i thought about parker but look what happened, we broke up on our 4th and he goes out with janna. oh how i hate her and him. i want a guy who will treat me right surprise me with something for no reason just cause he can. my friends call me a hopeless romatic. but i cant help it that i know what i want in a guy and what kind of relationship i wan.
staying single is getting harder and harder i wish i could just find him and be happy again. i really do wish i could but thats just what they are...... wishs.
you know what i dont know what to write i just feel like writing. its 11:20 and i have to get up early to go up north. thank the goddess that we have all next week off. i think i would go insane if i had to sit in skool one more day. i have 3 more weeks to bring my 4 f's to passing or i fall the semester. and if i do that i am shit.
my life is fucked up right now. i mean i am so close to failing to 10th grade like i did the 7th and i am so fucking confused about my love and friendship life. they are both doomed. but whatever. i am a loner anywas well kinda.
ever since taija left i really dont have anyone to talk to. bree ignores me when stef gets to skool. me and stef kinda went our on way since she started dateing kyle which is nothing wrong with that. mark is getting on my nerves. so all i have to talk to is you journal. but its no use talking to something that cant talk back. cause i still feel as empty as before. the only thing that well make me feel better is to write down my feelings.
i really miss brandon. i wish he would come back. you know one thing i hate about boys is that they will make-out with you one day and totally ignore you the next. they act like nothing ever happened. that pisses me off. they only reason why i am no longer dateing is cause i am tired or the same old bullshit. you go out with a guy make-out with him something goes wrong and ya'll break up. me what i am looking for is a long and serousy relationship. i want one that will last
but those kind of relationships are hard to come by. thats what i thought about parker but look what happened, we broke up on our 4th and he goes out with janna. oh how i hate her and him. i want a guy who will treat me right surprise me with something for no reason just cause he can. my friends call me a hopeless romatic. but i cant help it that i know what i want in a guy and what kind of relationship i wan.
staying single is getting harder and harder i wish i could just find him and be happy again. i really do wish i could but thats just what they are...... wishs.