Redefined into the Catagory
It's Been awhile.
Obviously if you see this entry you should know that I'm breathing. Over the past few years it's been one event after another and it's about time I'm starting to believe in my dreams more than anything else. I sleep alot..well enough during the day and at night I just roam in thought. My past and how it effects my present, my present and how it'll effect my future. The same ol' kidd ya'll once knew has grown into this body that alot of people could relate too but still...I'm alone. I've learned so many things about myself and about my family. How i'm the last of my family generation and how it may be I'll never have somebody just for me, it's not meant to. It's almost as if what I need doesn't matter because it's something bigger that needs to be done.
Camilla,
It happened for a reason and I could no longer be upset about it. I've accepted the fact that I was suppose to endure this much to kill any sensation of love. It drove out that force of my family putting the weight of having children and being happily married etc etc. So I take in the curse as if it was a gift, because either way, it's a blessing.
Tiffany,
What can I say..she's happy and that's all that matters.
All I know is that I live day by day with brutal beatings of the mental...I guess it'll make me stronger for whats yet to come.
And what's to come..words won't be able to explain.
Sin.
Obviously if you see this entry you should know that I'm breathing. Over the past few years it's been one event after another and it's about time I'm starting to believe in my dreams more than anything else. I sleep alot..well enough during the day and at night I just roam in thought. My past and how it effects my present, my present and how it'll effect my future. The same ol' kidd ya'll once knew has grown into this body that alot of people could relate too but still...I'm alone. I've learned so many things about myself and about my family. How i'm the last of my family generation and how it may be I'll never have somebody just for me, it's not meant to. It's almost as if what I need doesn't matter because it's something bigger that needs to be done.
Camilla,
It happened for a reason and I could no longer be upset about it. I've accepted the fact that I was suppose to endure this much to kill any sensation of love. It drove out that force of my family putting the weight of having children and being happily married etc etc. So I take in the curse as if it was a gift, because either way, it's a blessing.
Tiffany,
What can I say..she's happy and that's all that matters.
All I know is that I live day by day with brutal beatings of the mental...I guess it'll make me stronger for whats yet to come.
And what's to come..words won't be able to explain.
Sin.