I wrote this when I was like fourteen.....

[magicinyourhand]

"I don't want to know anything anymore. I don't want to feel anything with attachments. I just want to live. Freedom calls from every sound, sight, and smell and yet I am hindered from answering its cry. I don't want anything that I have and I want everything that eludes me. I feel that Carelessness at this time would be a foolish move in the game of life but if I don't risk it now when will I? Yes, now would be the time if I ever want peace. I need to test my boundaries, run up against my invisible fence and see how far I can stretch before bouncing back to the comfort zone. I want to feel every human emotion to the fullest, without edits or censors! I want to groan and kick and scream and feel my senses electrified with the sheer pleasure of living. I want to fly as high as I possibly can, higher than limits to a place where breathing hurts. I want to reach people and cut through social fog and think outside myself.

And when I come back down, I'll realize that my only dream was to be with You. When I have aspired for every goal, You are the only one I want to reach. When I've sized up the world and me, you're bigger than all and catch me when I fall. You're the only place I need to be and the only place I'm truly alive."

~It's good to realize that in some part of me I always knew God would end up being my first priority....even though He wasn't when I wrote that and He wouldn't be for a long while. But now He is and I'm soooo much better off:)~