so accusing their eyes... Like they have any right at all to criticize...
So I dropped drama... Yep. I'm no longer in A Christmas Carol.
I felt another breakdown coming, and I wasn't about to do that to myself again... plus last time, I forgot every line that I had... I had to re-memorize everything... and I couldn't do that again so close to performance. Yeah, I'm disappointed, and also feel like a piece of shit, since it was drilled into me that I let 70 something people down... Um.. yeah. thanks. Because, you know, I didn't realize this when I first decided to quit.
So yeah. I feel like shit and have been crying for the past 1/2 hour, but I'm relieved. I don't feel like I'm going to break anymore... and that's always a good thing.
Please don't tell me what I did was wrong or that I shouldn't have done it or try to convince me that I need to rejoin. Trust me, I got the third degree from Ms. Davis *our assistant director* ... I don't need it from anyone else.
I really am sorry you guys...
I felt another breakdown coming, and I wasn't about to do that to myself again... plus last time, I forgot every line that I had... I had to re-memorize everything... and I couldn't do that again so close to performance. Yeah, I'm disappointed, and also feel like a piece of shit, since it was drilled into me that I let 70 something people down... Um.. yeah. thanks. Because, you know, I didn't realize this when I first decided to quit.
So yeah. I feel like shit and have been crying for the past 1/2 hour, but I'm relieved. I don't feel like I'm going to break anymore... and that's always a good thing.
Please don't tell me what I did was wrong or that I shouldn't have done it or try to convince me that I need to rejoin. Trust me, I got the third degree from Ms. Davis *our assistant director* ... I don't need it from anyone else.
I really am sorry you guys...