As history repeats itself
The holidays are over. The birthday parties are over
And yet my christmas tree is still up
my decorations have yet to be put away
I'm just not ready, not ready to say goodbye
Old habits die hard, and although its the new year
I'm not sure if I can committ to a new me
I'm still stuck in my old ways
And though I want to be a better person
my heart right now is dictating who I am
Its not like I don't know how this could end
As history repeats itself it could end very badly
I'm not willing to take the risk, or make the jump
But yet I keep walking ever so closely to the cliff
Flirting carelessly with the edge its nauseating
I guess I'm just stupid
stupid for allowing myself to fall this far
And dig this deep
When I've known all along this would happen!!!!
Stop with the txt msgs and the phone calls
And the unspoken disapointment when in reality
it will never ever manifest
because if it did, I would be worthless
And yet my christmas tree is still up
my decorations have yet to be put away
I'm just not ready, not ready to say goodbye
Old habits die hard, and although its the new year
I'm not sure if I can committ to a new me
I'm still stuck in my old ways
And though I want to be a better person
my heart right now is dictating who I am
Its not like I don't know how this could end
As history repeats itself it could end very badly
I'm not willing to take the risk, or make the jump
But yet I keep walking ever so closely to the cliff
Flirting carelessly with the edge its nauseating
I guess I'm just stupid
stupid for allowing myself to fall this far
And dig this deep
When I've known all along this would happen!!!!
Stop with the txt msgs and the phone calls
And the unspoken disapointment when in reality
it will never ever manifest
because if it did, I would be worthless