Oh baby tell me why you act so strange
I said I was going to blog on Monday, but I'm sorry I lied /sad. I haven't been in the mood to type lately. Actually, I haven't been in the mood to do anything at all lately, much less type about my boring routined life. I'm guessing it's the boredom and routinity of my life that's making me take a backseat and just not do anything... but I may be wrong. Maybe it's just the lazy me dominating. I mean, it's possible right. In fact, it sounds more convincing than the whole 'bored with life' theory. Oh wells.
I wanted to say 'Yay I'm finally home!', but. But, there's always a but. I'm going back to hellhole tomorrow, or should I say later today since it's technically already Monday anyways. I'm going back to my... I don't know, 8feet(?)-wide room on the 26th floor in a few hours time, so I'm not really in the perkiest of mood right now. It makes me think of school... and school just stresses me out at the moment. Which is why I'm not exactly keen to go anywhere, literally and also in the mind, near 'school'. I haven't been the most diligent in attending class; I've been to what, 2weeks out of the 5 so far, and I'm probably going to skip more. It makes me feel guilty, but at the same time, I just don't feel like I learn anything from lectures anyway and I can easily spend the hours in school studying on my own instead. Not that I actually study. I mean, I'm most likely to be sleeping at that time. Come on, it's at 8 in the freaking morning when the sun is just starting to warm up. People should be getting ready to start their day at this time, not be enclosed in a hall freezing to death and trying to make sense of whatever the lecturer in front is drilling off at 150km per hour. But, I do try, okay. To wake up. Lately, I jolt up suddenly to find that it's already 9 or 10am with no memory at all of the alarm, which I remember setting the night before, ever ringing. Which then sets me into mild depression because I feel like the laziest person on earth and I feel sorry for wasting my parents' money. And depression doesn't sit well with my studying mode, which sends me into a moping phase and I'll spend my time stressing about the ticking time instead. Again, stress doesn't exactly run hand-in-hand with study mode, and so the vicious cycle repeats. Sounds fun, doesn't it? /sarcastic. Sighs.
Please God, please take a break from whatever you're doing right now and listen to my plea and err grant it. Please. Give me the mood to study, give me the time to finish all that I am supposed to study, give me the ability to study real quick (trying to be realistic, so 1 lecture in 2 hours max), and give me the brain capacity to remember all that I'm supposed to and all that I read. Please. Thank yous, amen. You'll be blessed for your kindness. Or you can bless yourself, I suppose, since you're God.
Please please please, I need to start studying! T__________T
Anyways. I'm going to be, or rather, I was forced to agree to be Prawn's teeth-sp (simulated patient) tomorrow. God bless my awesome teeth, pray that they come out alive and unscathed. Wish me luck. Lol.
I'll just continue with my supposedly 1 month long song meme, which is already 5 months old LOL.
Day 06 - A song that reminds you of somewhere.
HiYaYa - TVXQ/DBSK.
It's the ONLY song that reminds me of anywhere, period. Lol. It reminds me of BoraBora, and it's also this song (or rather, the MV) which started my obsession and love for BoraBora. And I still want to get married there, LOL. I think it's one of the best place to work, ever. Seriously. Hmm, I wonder if I can open a clinic there in the future? LOL. /daydream.
My favorite song at the moment. And also one of the greatest MV eyecandy ever, IMO. 8D . I can die happy and go to heaven in peace now, hallelujah amen alhamdullilah amitabha.
I wanted to say 'Yay I'm finally home!', but. But, there's always a but. I'm going back to hellhole tomorrow, or should I say later today since it's technically already Monday anyways. I'm going back to my... I don't know, 8feet(?)-wide room on the 26th floor in a few hours time, so I'm not really in the perkiest of mood right now. It makes me think of school... and school just stresses me out at the moment. Which is why I'm not exactly keen to go anywhere, literally and also in the mind, near 'school'. I haven't been the most diligent in attending class; I've been to what, 2weeks out of the 5 so far, and I'm probably going to skip more. It makes me feel guilty, but at the same time, I just don't feel like I learn anything from lectures anyway and I can easily spend the hours in school studying on my own instead. Not that I actually study. I mean, I'm most likely to be sleeping at that time. Come on, it's at 8 in the freaking morning when the sun is just starting to warm up. People should be getting ready to start their day at this time, not be enclosed in a hall freezing to death and trying to make sense of whatever the lecturer in front is drilling off at 150km per hour. But, I do try, okay. To wake up. Lately, I jolt up suddenly to find that it's already 9 or 10am with no memory at all of the alarm, which I remember setting the night before, ever ringing. Which then sets me into mild depression because I feel like the laziest person on earth and I feel sorry for wasting my parents' money. And depression doesn't sit well with my studying mode, which sends me into a moping phase and I'll spend my time stressing about the ticking time instead. Again, stress doesn't exactly run hand-in-hand with study mode, and so the vicious cycle repeats. Sounds fun, doesn't it? /sarcastic. Sighs.
Please God, please take a break from whatever you're doing right now and listen to my plea and err grant it. Please. Give me the mood to study, give me the time to finish all that I am supposed to study, give me the ability to study real quick (trying to be realistic, so 1 lecture in 2 hours max), and give me the brain capacity to remember all that I'm supposed to and all that I read. Please. Thank yous, amen. You'll be blessed for your kindness. Or you can bless yourself, I suppose, since you're God.
Please please please, I need to start studying! T__________T
Anyways. I'm going to be, or rather, I was forced to agree to be Prawn's teeth-sp (simulated patient) tomorrow. God bless my awesome teeth, pray that they come out alive and unscathed. Wish me luck. Lol.
I'll just continue with my supposedly 1 month long song meme, which is already 5 months old LOL.
Day 06 - A song that reminds you of somewhere.
HiYaYa - TVXQ/DBSK.
It's the ONLY song that reminds me of anywhere, period. Lol. It reminds me of BoraBora, and it's also this song (or rather, the MV) which started my obsession and love for BoraBora. And I still want to get married there, LOL. I think it's one of the best place to work, ever. Seriously. Hmm, I wonder if I can open a clinic there in the future? LOL. /daydream.
Click to viewMy favorite song at the moment. And also one of the greatest MV eyecandy ever, IMO. 8D . I can die happy and go to heaven in peace now, hallelujah amen alhamdullilah amitabha.