Lover Sleep Boy Mummy Heart Together. [rp for Lauren&Krista]

[magicanyway]

"That nurse is in love with you, Andy," Krista smiled in the direction of the young woman who had just delivered a gallon of orange juice and packet of graham crackers. Andy wouldn't be able to stomach the grahams but it was a good effort on the nurse's part

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[possessingbadge]

"Well, recovery first and for front. The sooner I can get out of here the better. I know there will be physical therapy too but I already called SBPD, gave them an update. They heard what happened but they hadn't heard my up to the minute. I still have to do the paperwork when I get home but I put in my notice. I talked to the man we were going to buy the house from and he said we could rent first so if we get there and hate it we'll just move. Pepper said I could take my time getting better. The job is on lock. So that takes the pressure of a down payment and we can survive on everything we've saved up until now. I'm asking Adam to go to the house and take pictures of my car. I can put an ad out from here and I'll just field inquiries on my cell. I figure if everything goes well with my last surgery then I'll be out of here in a week at the latest. Pepper's going to fly us home so I don't have to worry about it being uncomfortable. We can start packing and we'll be in London by June like we planned." She stated everything like facts then caught Krista's eye and smirked.

"I've had a lot of down time and I don't do bored well."

[cunningkrista]

Andy murmured something in his sleep that sounded like "Oh Flea" and kept on snoring. He was pretty out of it.

"Wow. You're really are on top of it. Andy said you guys had played as many video games and watched as many videos as you could stand practically. He's trying to help with that stuff too, I know he is, even if it doesn't seem like it." She smiled, feeling proud of her daughter in law. "But you're lost when it comes to Andy?"

[possessingbadge]

She smirked a bit at Andy looking at him fondly. "I think people just handle stress differently. I bet when Andy was a kid he did his homework as soon as he got home. Maybe even started it at school. He's the type that likes to get it done early so he doesn't have to worry about it because he doesn't want the pressure of getting it done hanging over him all weekend. I'm the kind of person that was doing it Monday morning on the bus. Pressure helps me focus."

With a deep breath, she continued. "I wasn't the only one that went through something. I know that and I repeat it but he still fell apart. Remy was telling me how he was when they were trying to find me. Days he just wandered around New York in the rain. He didn't have a plan. He didn't know what he was doing. Something horrible could have happened to him. Thank god for Remy. Now here... I feel like I'm taking care of him. I'm happy to do it. I love him more than life but..." She paused and looked at her husband. "I don't know if I can rely on him."

[cunningkrista]

"I think I see what you're saying. That's one way to look at it. Andy's a writer, he works fine with deadlines and self imposed pressure. It's different when he's just so scared that he can't think straight," Krista mused, thinking deeply. "I think he felt stuck as well as scared, sweetheart. He didn't have a play by play plan but he didn't just go completely aimless. I know he called the police. I know he called everyone he knew that you knew that was in a train ride's distance. I know he checked every place in the city he thought you might go. I know he asked Remy for help when he realized he couldn't do it on his own anymore. Most importantly, I know he didn't give up. That doesn't sound too aimless, does it?"

She continued. "Feeling like you can rely on him is something Andy has to earn for sure. I just don't know what else you could have asked him to do. It's true, he didn't know what he to do. He sure tried though. What would have done if Andy went missing for four days? Probably something similar except with guns drawn." She winked, making it clear she was good natured, "If you'd be able to keep it together I'd be very impressed. I wouldn't be able to."

[possessingbadge]

"Krista, Remy said he was out in the rain for over a day just showing my picture around. He talked to the police and called my friends but beyond that... I know he's not a cop. He's not an investigator but what he did was reckless with no regard for himself. He's lucky as hell he wasn't mugged or worse. he got extremely lucky and when I think about how easy it would have been for one thing not to have worked out... I don't need that right now. I know that he thinks he's giving me 110% but when he's not even taking care of himself, how can he take care of me? I knew when I married him that it was a gamble. He's easily the best person I've ever known but he's always had family or friends to take care of him. He's had that safety net and he never really had the opportunity to go it alone. I'd been alone too long so I didn't mind because any help he could be was better then having to do everything myself. So maybe this is my fault too. Maybe if I did less and made him take up more he wouldn't be such a mess now but I hate that I resent for this. I hate that I really really needed him to be strong for me and he just couldn't."

Pink tinged tears started to flow again and her temples started to pound with a tension headache. She hit the morphine button and sat back breathing evenly while she waited for the salvation to make its way through her bloodstream.

[cunningkrista]

"Of course it was reckless, you duck!' Krista smiled and continued stroking Lauren's head lovingly. "He wasn't thinking about himself, he was thinking about! His heart and soul was missing. He did all the logical things, all the safe things. Being reckless in order to find you? Risk getting mugged to find you? You bet your ass he would. Andy doesn't think about himself first, that's the truth and I'm sure you knew that before you married him. That doesn't mean you can't rely on him. If you think he wouldn't be there for you, that he wouldn't do anything for you then you're kidding yourself. Andrew has strength. Maybe he's not showing it this second and maybe you can't see it, but it's there and this far from the first time he's been in hot water. He's got more passion and strength than most anyone you will ever meet. You've been in the hospital for 4 days. He's decompressing. Give him a chance, Lauren. You'll be surprised. And if you still don't think you can rely on him then please divorce him because he doesn't deserve to spend his life with a woman who doesn't believe in him."

[possessingbadge]

Her words shamed her and the tears flowed a little heavier. If she didn't calm herself down visitors would have to leave. "I know he would do anything for me but how can I be okay if he's not? Why would I want to get better if he was letting himself get worse. The only thing that kept me alive was him. Was coming back to him. I wanted to die so badly but every time I thought of him and saw his face, I knew I had to keep trying. I had to make myself tilt my head back for water or move my limbs even a little to keep circulation going. Only to finally be found, open my eyes, and know that I did that to him. It was grief over me that was killing him He could have been killed because of me. I already got his..."

Lauren stops herself again now bawling at the thought of that question mark that could have been their baby. The mnitor was going nuts as her blood pressure and heart rate sky rocketed. One of the nurses jogged in and glanced at the two women.

Lauren panicked. "I'm sorry don't make them go. I'm sorry."

The nurse nodded and left but returned a few seconds later. "I won't make them leave but I think maybe you could use some sleep."

The detective started to protest but silently nodded instead. She was pretty tired. The emotions were killing her.

[cunningkrista]

"You didn't do anything sweetheart," Krista's tone was gentle. Her hand rested on Lauren's bandage abdomen in a gesture of comfort. She wanted Lauren's vitals to stop, she felt relieved as the nurse helped her monitors go back to normal. "Your abuser abused Andrew too when he did this to you. Andrew's heart broke for you, Lauren, but no one has ever died from a broken heart and neither will you all. Relax, getting yourself all worked up won't help anyone."

Krista stood up and rearranged Andy so he was completely on the cot. Then she tucked in Lauren. "I almost forgot, Andy bought these for you." She tucked in a little stuffed duck that looked just like Goose and a little Brown dog stuffed animal that symbolized Flea.

[possessingbadge]

The stuffies made her smile and she hugged them to her chest. Pain be damned, she hugged them tightly. Everything Krista said was true. It was all the same sort of stuff she would have told anyone in her position but her upbringing, military and police training made it impossible for her to feel anything but partially responsible. She didn't make Bobby a monster. She didn't do anything to deserve that but she should have known better. No one would have been more prepared and she failed and not without a cost.

She wouldn't remember when she fell asleep the next day. She literally blinked and was out. Seeking haven in that soothing black.

[magicanyway]

Krista stayed with her for a long time that night. Some people might have scolded her for being so harsh with someone who was already victim. Krista knew, however, that being soft on her when she didn't deserve it would only make her feel even smaller, even more like a victim.

Eventually she was told it was time to leave. She left a note for Lauren that said, "Lauren love. Give everything time. You're surrounded by love. I'll be back to see you and I'll kick Andy's ass if you need me to. Much, much, much, much, much, love. Krista."

The next morning, Lauren would wake up to find Andy's naked form snuggled around her, sound asleep until she woke him up.

[possessingbadge]

The drugs made it even harder for her to wake up in the morning than it usually did. Her eyes felt like they were weighted with bricks. At some point during the night she ended up on her side and Andy climbed in with her. It was so blissfully normal she almost forgot what had happened until she shifted to get more comfortable and winced due to the bandages shifting on her stomach.

It was less pain then it had been though. Progress was a good thing. She could almost even see through her bad eye now that the swelling had gone down. Lauren snuggled closer to her husband, pulled the blankets so he wasn't flashing anyone should they come in, then kissed him tenderly on his bare shoulder.

[magicanyway]

After Andy had crawled into bed with her, it wasn't the potion keeping him asleep anymore. It felt damn good to get a good rest. His body was really thanking him. The potion had pushed the nightmares away and his sleep had been blissfully free of anything other than detached images of Flea and Adrian and their wedding and James and his father and pudding.

He had undressed without really thinking about because that was how he liked sleeping. He crawled in bed with her and slept soundly through the night, feeling really good the next morning when she kissed his bare shoulder. He felt like he was making progress too. "Is it time to wake up already?"

[possessingbadge]

"Mmmm no" she moaned against his shoulder with a chuckle. She didn't want to move yet. In fact, she wished they were out of that stupid hospital so they could have some privacy. Apparently torture was only good for killing her sex drive for two weeks. Now she cursed every ache and pain because she wanted Andy. She tried not to think about what a turn off it must be for him staring into her disfigured, bruised, stitched up face as she kept her face buried into the crook of his neck kissing him.

[magicanyway]

He smiled and stretched before wrapping around her again. He wasn't sure she ever wanted to have sex again after what happened but he wouldn't have minded privacy either. He felt happy and alive at the moment, encased in smell of his and Lauren's sleep. He knew she felt uglier than a smushed beetle but he found her beautiful, as beautiful as he had when he first fell in love with her. He murmured in pleasure at her lips on his skin. "It feel great to sleep. Especially curled up with you. Almost as good your lips on my skin right now."

[possessingbadge]

"Ever" was a long, ominous sounding word. She still jumped when most people touched her but Andy wasn't just anybody. Even when he was dirty, skinny, sleep deprived and reeking of BO she didn't want anyone else around her.

Though he certainly didn't smell at the moment. A little warm smell of sweat from sleeping mingled with his skin and soap but it was all him. She was the one that smelled like a wet scabby band-aid. They did the sponge bath thing every day but he hair was gross and pulled back to keep it out of the way.

The thoughts were enough to make her stop. She didn't want to traumatize the guy.

[magicanyway]

Andy didn't notice her grunginess at that moment and when he had at previous times he hadn't really thought much of it. She was alive despite her injuries and that was sexy to him.

Right then he was reveling in the feeling of being well rested. He felt lighter than before, he felt cozy and warm and he was with Lauren. He had a sort of peace, like a baby snuggled into bed. He kissed her when she recoiled. "It's okay, baby. It's okay."