Astronomy Tower
It was supposoed to be getting better. That's the way it had always worked before. After a few days the shock would wear off and Remus would be able to lock the emotions away where they wouldn't affect him anymore. Then he could go on, pretend nothing had happened. And after a while it would almost be like it hadn't.
But not this time.
He hadn't talked much since his break down in the hospital wing. Not to his friends, not to anyone. In class he barely paid attention, not even trying to take notes. And in practical lessons he was worse than useless. He spent most of his time in the library, not reading, just sitting in the back where no one would see him. He went to bed early, avoided the common room, and almost never went to meals in the Great Hall anymore. Sometimes he went down to the kitchen, but more often then not it was simply to much bother to eat.
His friends had been very patient with him.
Part of him still wished he'd had the guts to leave the school. Told Dumbledore what had happened and let him call the ministry. But he was a coward. A selfish coward. He couldn't face the ministry facilities. The cages... So he was still here, Even though he knew a monster had no place in a school.
Tonight had just been too much. His friends had followed him up to the dorm, talking and laughing and trying to include him. But he couldn't. He just couldn't. He had mumbled something about the library and all but ran from the room. Now he sat on the wall of the astronomy tower, staring down at the grounds below him. It would be so easy to end this. To make it all go away. Then he couldn't possibly hurt anyone ever again...