Sometimes I just dont get people. Actually, all the time.

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So....I dont understand. Im friends with someone. They know I am no longer friends with another person. But because the person thinks that the ex friend is delicious in some sort of way, he decides to find out what shes all about and comment herrrr. So, all is well and good. Until he brings up my name. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! Ohhh Lindsey isnt friends with her anymore. LET ME BRING UP A SORE SUBJECT FOR THE BOTH OF YOU. IN OPEN OBSERVATIVE (is that a word??) CONDITIONS!!! IDIOTTTTTTTTT. UGHHH. So. As I take a deep breath, i'm trying to think of what else i can vent about on here. I dont understand why he cant get over the fact that WE ARENT TOGETHER ANYMORE. I get a phone call everytime he leaves work. Every time he does something, or is about to do something. Im out with my friends, aaaand i hear the Cartel ring tone on my cell. Its getting pretty obvious who these phone calls are coming from. Theres a select few people who call me now, andddd well, its almost easier to just assume who's calling me when my phone rings. Besides all that, I think I have anger management issues. I was sitting here tonight, being all goofy and silly....talking to people and laughing and such...and then all of a sudden, one thing is said by the ex and BAM. Im in a shitty mood. I think...I need some drugs or something. lol I need to chill out. And whenever someone tells me that i need to chill out, OOOH MAN they might as well kill themselves because they get the death stare. I hate when people tell me..."You need to relax"..."You need to CALM DOWN" FUCK YOU!! DONT FUCKING TELL ME TO CALM DOWN! That just makes me more upset. Whyyy cant I just be upset....For a moments time. Moments such as this one. Ugh. Yuck. I hate being angry.
On a happier note. I finished painting my room. The painters tape can come off tomorrow morning and my bedroom furniture can go back in its right place...and everything can be restored to peace in my room again. My new paintings can go up on the walls...Along with some other stufffff....anddd ILL BE HAPPYYYY to be in this room. What else? Oh. My last day at petshit was saturday. Now im only working one job! Woooo hooo animal hospital. Set hours. Do you know how nice it is to know exactly when youre gonna be working? AMAZING. Hm....So...Im starting to get back on track with old friends again. Well, not necessarily with old friends, but with friends none the less. Im starting to branch out and hang out with people again and it feels good. Itll be nice to talk to many different people again. Rather than just one. I want anyone who ever reads this to promise me one thing. Promise me that you will never let me get so wrapped up in a relationship with a significant other that I neglect to participate in FRIENDLY activities with my friends. lol. PROMISE ME THATTTTT. I cant let myself do that anymore. I think thats why Im fucking nuts. Its gotta be.....

I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO SAY BUT IM GONNA STOP THERE CAUSE I DONT FEEL LIKE TYPING ANYMOREEEEEEE...my neck hurts. ...

good nighttt